olaaa :D
as u cn see.
i blog everyday.
which means..
im slacking everyday .
hell. no.
UGHHH.
lalalalala.
Slack..........ing............
watever.
watever.
watever.
Ummmm......
today... 2tests ==
i love SPA test ..
so funn.
COZZZ!!!!
thr is POTATOESSS ~
i have the urge to eat it.. though it is RAW==
Yuumm~
lalalalalalala.....
umm
long time since i ate potatoes ...
Yuumm.
YUMMM
yea....
today.. me n jo "stalk" ppl..
kind of~
heee.
it was frking fun.
Esp the part when... Ummm *coughh*
i hope she gets it : D
hahahahah
it is sooo fun.
kind of.
hoooooooooo.
HAAA.
ok. this mad.
Went sch lib borrowed bks~
im so happyyyy: D
today books i borrowed is all frking nice
esp 2bks tt i have been searching for so long..
AND I FOUND IT IN MY SCH LIB.
my gosshhhh.
HAHA.
bookssss~
lol!
long time since i really sat down and read a book
OH YA.
today kind of succkss too.
i took the frking wrong bus home!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
luckily i knew how to walk home....
pheww*
wasted bout 30mins of my time lorr ==
i was frking stupid.
i cnt believe i took the wrong bus.
i mus be blind.
this.. happen..not only one time..
wthh.
im a sotong.
laaaaaaaa~
ummm.
goin the jubilee hall.
to support my friends and sis : D
im such a good friend and sibiling!! yayZZZZ
heee~
hoo~
ok.im lazy to explain wat is the jubilee hall thingy.
la.
ok.
ok.
ok.

bye :D

haaa.
* a fake laugh*

i wonder, why i am so stupid.
i fall deeper each day...
but i couldnt do anything, could i?
I wanted to be frank.
But i dun have the courage.
This process was tiring,
and maybe. MAYBE,
the ending is not i wanted it to be..
If you are reading this, tellme your feelings..
No matter good or bad..
Actually.
I noe you noe..that the person is you...


this was wat i wanted to type today...
But..Actually.
i dun nid it anymore..
not tt i have given up.
Jus tt..
i have ACCIDENTALLY know the truth....
I dun wan to tell myself tt ..Tt thing might be false.
Coz.. i hv given myself too much false hope.
Tt everything..turn out.. So bad.
i dunno wat to do now..
IDUNNO...
i wan cry agn.
but im not goin to let myself do tt.
im not.
IM NOT..
this is too much...


but..
cn u tell me..
ur feelings to me?
yes.. im trying to let myself believe tt there is still hope..
but i really wan to clarify.
:'(

Ola ;D

Haaaa.

lalal~

Tml sch ler .. v...sian..

But.. Hee XDDDD

tml wanted to go swing. But suddenly rmb got supp class.. wthhh..

ruined my mood T.T

Daaa~

GOD.

ppl.

im putting on weight due to eating .....

alot xD

la.

Watever. who cares?

at least i exercise every wk kayss?

i put on 2kg....... ==

HELL. nvmnvm. i dun care.

WAtever.

Da~

tml got test ==

ahhhhhhhh.

haixxx.............it is goin be 10pm soon ==

guess i will slp late today~

No choice. Tml... Panda eyes ==

poorrr meeeeee ~

Daaaa~

ytd. Worst and one of my best night.

I guess ;D

I actually realised tt ... My life is great.

With 3 bestie.

Who knew me the BEST.

who really noe...Wat i am thinkin

Well. it is nt tt complicated bah..

lalalalalala~

It is you.

elmo. ;D

i noe u three will be thr for me.... ;D

i've gone too deep.

i din noe wat happen to me these few days...

I dunno.

This jus ruined all my mood..

I said. I knew.

I have to learn to let go.. and not cling to the past .

Yea...

Haa.





This is anything agn.

I really cnt believe u still have the ability to make me cry.

i thought. it is kind of over.

Well..not. i thought everything will pass.

But it has been such a long. long .long. time.

LALA.

blahhh.

Watever.

haixx.

Let it go, Cai Ling.

this phrase. applies on this too ;D

i wish u the best.

though i noe..

Mayb..u cnt do it...

ola!! XD
lalala
today went 18chefs with Jess, jean n Mingsearn :D
HEEEEE.lalala
MS rch thr early..
Thr keep on hurry me ==
La. Brought BBALL thr..
MS bring Badminton racket :D
Order pastA.
spicy garlic with 2 toppings .. NO.. 3topping :P
ok. i have a big appetite! i noe..
ice lemon tea and ice cream too :D
both came with the meal HAAA.
thn went BBALL court near YTSS play BBALL and badminton.
hee.
Zixiang at thr too :P
lalalal.
WOOTZ~ played badminton with MS.
Set up the dumb net.
lol. we dunno how actually . so jus anyhow tie...
found out tt my badminton skills actually improve :P
HAAA!! WOOTZ~ leave MS to play with zixiang. lala
Both v. good. But ZX better . LOL!
BBALL-ed too . MS.. agn.. aso v. good.. But.. Umm. ZX better!!
LOL wth..
lalalaaaaa.
zzz. Went Each a cup after tt.
Thn lib .Return bks. Saw Yichang.
Thn saw Jovan :D
lol..
Went home after tt.
Fun day :D
Esp when we playedddd!:p


lalala.
I jus have to learn to let go :D

Bye !!! :D
lookin forward to another outing :D

ola :D
umm. few days din blog lerr.
this wk is kind of busy==
Yea.....
lalalallalal~
Elmo :D

umm. recall wat happen~
i aso forget ler..
Today GG :D
drilling the whole day.
came bck home slept!!
till bout 8.30pm.
LOL...
pig . i noe :D
lalala..
ohh. ya...
ytd? shld be
stayed bck for class deco
AGN!
fun :D
esp at the ending
when we finishing ler.
i started the dumb molesting (poking) game.
JO was the victim..HAAA. and it spread to boys too :P
all thanks to me ==
poke~
poke~
and we strip boys!
LOL
ok la
We tried.
But to no avail ==
wanted un-buttoned to :X
cnt down shorts. boys' pants to tight. HAAA..
OK. this is.. LOL.
We did sth wrong too XD
played with the door :D.
scolded ==
HELL.LOR.
haa.ookokokok~
Ummm.
Yea..
AHH. tml goin lunch-ed with MS and others.
WTH
WTH
WTH!!!!!!!!
ZZZZZZ.
watever.



OH..Ya..
thanks for tday.
if u really did tt. (:
IF..
Yea...
and YOU too.
Thanks for reminding me..
haaa.
okok..
Ummm...
Wat to say??
it seems tt.. well..
i aso dunno wat happened.
i mean. Actually. Nth happen.. :X
Yea.
Nth.
lala.
:D
I-like-your-eyes-today. :D
LOL!



bye! :D
i wan potatoesss. !!!
i stimes jus simply LOVE my life :D
boring but interesting.
no link .i noe :D
but i get the link !
byebyebye..
goin search my nature pics :D

Two posts in a day.

-Whenever you feel you will nvr see light, feel warmth or be happy ever agn, just rmb, somewhere on Earth right now ,the sun is rising.

-Dont Chase your Dreams.. CATCH THEM!

-Misery is always the result of thinking.

-Ppl can live for one hundred years without really living a min.

-Love like you have never been hurt, dance like nobody is watching.
Sing as though no one can hear you, live as though heaven is on Earth.

-Though the mountain might look far and high, but with determination and high spirit, you will get to the top.

-Failure is only a temporary change in direction to set you straight for your nxt success.

-There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work and learning from failures.

-If you fall down 7times, get up 8times.

-Do not worry about the future, for it is not yet come.Live each day in the present and make it beautiful.

-Life is like an onion: you peel it off one layer one time, and stimes you weep.

-Dreams are like a star... one blows up and another gets brighter.

Ola ppl :)
I Seriously hate tt previous post.
Sooo emo.. ==
But im not goin delete it :X

haixx.?
This week ending...
Yea..
ZZZ.
this is seriously not a holiday at all.
everyday have to wake up a 8plus.
Thn go sch ==
sian.
Today no sch
slept till bout umm. 11plus
:D
shiok.
Haaaa..
Plus today aso raining in the morning..
Yeaa.
:D
Haa.
Z==
Hw still not done.
But almost..
DIN EVEN GET A CHANCE TO REVISE.
damnn.
Haixx
Thinkin bck, at least p6 we get to rest right??
god.
LALALALALALA~
suddenly found out tt my life is plain boring and meaningless.
Nth challenging for me XD
used to fret like hell over the obstacles i met and hoping i nvr met them.
But once i din meet them im boring. And life is COMPLETE MEANINGLESS.
yea.
humans are like tt.
Once u have sth, u hope it doesnt belongs to you.
But once u lose it, u hope it belongs to you.
dumb right?
yea. almost.

I love my p6 life.
all of the sudden.
Coz it is always filled with challenges.
ALWAYS.
one after another.
and those challenges made me happy :D
made me Sad n angry :(
Sigh.
i missed those days whr i fretted over things :D
But wat cn i do now?
Nth.

MY LIFE IS PLAIN BORING !!!!
Ughhh.
Btww, i kept on having supper the whole holiday.
Yeaa.
I've put on weight.
OBVIOUSLY .
but who cares?
blek :P



Byee.
Im off to my plain boring life. :(

Everything is a disaster...
You appeared in my life...
and disappear and came back ONCE MORE...
You r cruel...
to make me suffer agn..
NO!
u din..
i jus havent sort it out yet....
TIME HEALS.
IT DOESNT APPLY TO ME ... NOW.
i hate you.
like hell.
nope. i dont.

i jus hope everything isnt like this.
Everything between us is ruined.
jus like tt?
Yea. pity, isnt it??
i really missed the times..
alot..
But nth is goin happen now.
And mayb. NEVER!!!!!!!!!!
Why mus u do tt??
Actually, u din do anything. it is jus my wishful thinking.
and tt hurts.
i cnt do anything right?
Now, even time Cnt save me.
i've gone...Too... too... too... DEEP.......
This is the first time
tt i have gone So..SO..SOOOO deep
tt i cnt save myself..
What can i do??
mayb i NVR noe...
i shall jus continue like this..
And wait for time to pass by..
and i will die..
i will die
i will die..
Because of you....


cruel.

OLA!
lalalala :D

Ytd?
shld be. Went jingyee house do sci experiment
HEE
kind of have tons fun XD
lol
cost.. HELL. so damn ex lehh.
bankrupt lerr.
==
poor me..
haaaaa.
Brought bball along.
after sci experiment went bball.
Haaa.
damnn.i v. lazy type wat happen
==
AHH.

lol
today.
GG training.
tried :X
drilling and test ==
lol
DRILL
luplupluprightlup~
==
today cnt drill properly lehh.
leg pain like hell
mayb ytd play bball ==
yeaa~
heeeeeeeee.
==
WTH?
byeee.
tml need go class deco.



LALA


ummm.. the feeling.
Havent fade.
im still waiting.
But wat cn i do?
Nth!
yea...
let me suffer..
let me suffer..
let me suffer..

im dying.
mayb..or mayb not..........
:(


My life is meaningless.
mayb.
ppl .make me happy...~
passerby?
u gone?
i still wan to noe who u r.
u are part of my motivation ... to go sch;)

OLA PPLL!!
Heee.
Had damn lots fun ytd..
morining...
I had to carry seriously alot of stuffs to sch for st lukes home..
WALK to sch with my sis
==
She din even bother to hlp me takkeee lehhh..
LOL.
Panting like mad when rch sch.
*CAN ANYONE HLP ME?*
==
god.
lalalala.
Took bus thr.
LOL.
i let class blast songs they wan...
Actually is not they wan..lol..
Heeee.
Everything turn out quite smoothly though..
Was damn supportive kays??
i shout till my voice out of tune..
-.-
poor me ... LOL.
Heeee.
my hard wrk kind of pay off...
Yea.. quite happy.
But some ppl go thr to slack only. ==
But conclusion, good job 1E3!! (:
Hee.
alot small details happen. hee. make me damn happy. HOO.
Go bck..bus.. we had this "dedication session" LOL.
Geraldine is sort of DJ..
Thn i sit beside her..at first seat.
Hee.
thn..we cn play songs through the mike thr.
then classmates cn tell us wat songs they and and dedicated to who.
hee.
nice(:
Was supposed to do reflection thr.
lol.
thn after tt.
whole class went canteen do reflection wrksheet.
LOL.
After tt. went sch outdoor court SEE class boys play BBALL.
took my new one thr.
Went NP eat after tt.
lol. sebestian and gerladine, me went food court.
others go mac (:
hee.
after tt went out of sch court play.
damnn fun : D
though i dunno how play..
Heee.
I LOVE JUMPING!!
hell. i wan play BBALL!!! and frisbee..
soccer..miss it though.. :(
Suddenly found tt. my sec sch friends all more sporty..
thn exposed to more sports
FUN XD
I got sport genes kaysS?
lol ><
uhh.
play till 7plus thn rch home..
zzz.
agn.. lots of small details.....fun ones..
hee.
fun.
fun.
fun.
: D


My god....Wat has u become???
i miss the old you though (:
Well, i cnt change u....
Life still continue doesnt it?
what can i do?




Ha.
im not goin to fall in other ppl traps anymore :D
i feel nth now.
though.
tt a good news.


Byeee !

sports love.
potato still love.
:D
u. dun love :D

ola ppl! XD

Today was really fun (except for maths trail :X )
yeaa.
Maths trail..ZZZ.
I went mad doin the maths ques on a stupid 3G phone??
Hell ==
It was sooo hard to use it ==
especially when im not good at these kind of stuffs
And!
We have to carry our empty stomachs and do the dumb maths ques.
make me and jo, jingyee and jas damn irritated ==
Haa.
ok..in the end. it seems tt our ans all wrong ==
HELL.Ughh.
But quite fun.
got tons of kindergarden kids thr.
dunno bring them thr for wat ==
Lol. We keep on waving to them.
and they really waved bck!!!
AWW~ so cute XD
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
last min bout mac spicy. -.-
Ate in bus. torture==
ZZZ
is like....unglam ==
LOL.

Went bck.
Rehersal..for St lukes home!!
Well done for todayXD

after tt went to indoor sports hall behind.. played frisbee, pumping game, frisbee captain ball..Blahhh.
alot luhh.
With alot ppl quite ==
is mainly me, jingyee, sebestian and jiajing play the frisbee...Ummm.
nice. damn fun
jump up and down.LOL..
Damn tiring after play frisbee captian ball.
ppl thr went mad. Spraying water all around. ZZ...
SPRAY~
LOL?
thn chat. play. chat. play.
oh ya..
played the pumping game as well.
sicssors paper stone!
loser pump 5times
==
Ughh. kept losing...
pump. pump. pump.
Luckily i pump girls type.
LOL.
After tt. went np. bought bubble tea.
Thn went cold storage with others to buy biscuits for st lukes home..
ZZZ. kind of regret it.
LOL
Thn after tt went interchange ..jus right..jiajing and geraldine bus..went..lol
thn stand thr chit chat till their bus come..
lala.
fun day.
I love frisbee!!
jingyee rocks in frisbeeXD

i love sports XD
Hoo.i met someone today XD

OLAXD
hihi(:
Ummm. this is goin be a normal post. i guess. Finally.
Was soooo depressed this wk. and last wk ==
Due to some problems..
ZzZ?
aiyerr. Wat cn i do?
so let time heals(:
LOL. Yeaa
jus now got GG.
Learnt a little bout wearing uniform!
I fold the scarf(for the uni) till v. desperate....
Almost went mad... diffcult lehh...
LOL--
heeeeeeeee.
Z?
After GG went lib. slack thr. SLACKING LEH~
hell.
Got quite a number of test papers bck
English was a disappointment.
Ughh.
others was. considered a success to me(:
Heeee.
Wrk harder!!
hee. Now. strive for full marks. LOL.
SIAOOO??
Yea. Quite. ==



Gosh. Im so "jealous" of mingsearn!!
XD
LOL. he got sooo much thrilling activities in AISS!!!
unlike YT. ==
Study and study.
LOL.
ummmm..
yea...
jus let nature takes its course... (:
Haaa.
nvm.nvm. i will find fun myself :X
hoo~

JO:
things are hard for both of us.
i noe.
Yes.
Wait. let us wait till nxt wk is over.
Thn we become hyper agn?
kays??
im sorry.

I finally felt stressed today, ppl.
come on...
Why cnt u all jus understand me???
DO U ALL NOE TT TCHER DUN BLAME U FOR NTH?
THEY HAV REASONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GET IT?
i noe u all dun.
i tried .u al gave me feedbacks. Thanks for tt.
But for certain ppl. Cn u stop having tt metality?
I tried explaning u nvr give me chance to.
u noe im really stress up to my head??
u dunno. i noe. and i noe u wont understand.
pls.
What do u expect me to do??
TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I BEG U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEAD. BEG. PLEAD. BEG.
plsss??
i dunno how u get the news.
i dun care who tell u.
DID THE PERSON EVER TELL U THE WHOLE STORY?
DID he/SHE DID TT?
COME ON.
I WANTED TO EXPLAIN TO U WHAT I TOLD THE TCHER.
U DUN LISTEN.
U DUN.
CAN U GET THE FULL STORY B4 U KEEP BLAMING ME/US???
PLS?
I BEG U.
ughh.



I jus cut my hair. 5incH!!! XD
ate choco.
i nvr felt better.
wat u wan me do?
i dunno.
u noe. one of u dun cooperate.
this class will collaspe.

To: 1E3 pupils.

Heyy. people. guess wat? Im not giving up(:
U noe. u all gave me tons of problems.
Boys. cn u all cooperate with me??
I noe. I may not make a good leader.
i told some of you. to criticise me. To hlp me improve. Yea.
U gave me stupid ones like ,: " U SUX!"
yea. I noe u all were joking.
But i seriously need all those critisim to improve.
Why cannot 1E3 jus cooperate with me???
I did whatever i cn, Shoutings, speaking to u all gently, pleading you all to settle down.
did u all follow??
Nope. u all din(:
I always believe in u all. YES. TILL NOW. I STILL DO.
I believe u all will give me good quality work.
u all were noisy. Dun cooperate with me.
But.
I saw ur power in all of you...
i saw ur hyper-ness.
Well, mayb.
(:
Do you noe how much effort ur heads put in???
U noe. for the sake of you all. Me and jiasheng stayed up recently. Almost every night to hlp u all.
to improve.
Do you all noe, today.
I raised up ur problems. U all having to form tcher.
For example. i heard you all sayin.
The expectations are too high.
I raised it up to tcher.
Yes.
i did.
And im convince by form tcher tt.
High expectations are needed.
if tcher din have high expectations in u all.
THEY R LOOKING DOWN ON U ALL!!
1/3..
best class uh??
yess.
high expectations is a need(:
U all see?
I hlp u all.
Without all of u knowing. Everything.
What did i get in return?
Being fed-up.
nope.
I dun blame u all.
Mayb, it is my fault.
mayb, it isnt.
I will try to improve, 1/3.
But can u all. Stand in my shoes and think??
I did stand in ur shoes and think
like i said earlier, i raised ur problems/stress to the tcher already.
yes.
I did, 1.3...
Do u all noe. Im utterly disappointed in u all today??
Nvm..
Mayb. It is my fault. once more(:
1E3.
Im unable to control u all.
But i have to say.
I STILL TRUST U ALL.
my hope is nvr shattered.
1e3.
no matter how hard the things are for me.
im nvr goin to give up.
get it? :)
i hope u all will improve.
in ur attitude.
esp the boys.
Cann?
* i noe u all wont read this.....*


Cai Ling(:

OLA!! :))
hihi~
hooo.
This wk.
Damn lot of PROJECTS~
Ughh.
Alot.WHOLE LOT.
and tests
HAVENT FINSH YET
-.-'

My god.
im dying(YEA.LIKE REAL)
==
okok.
I still cn cope.
(:
currently.
omgg.
I cnt believe i doze off in class today ==
ZZZ?
is like for tt 30secs..
I jolted up.
suddenly.
Im too tired.
heelll.
Im so guai.
AND I DOZE OFF!!
AHH.
LOL.
but cnt hlp it mah.
is the tcher so boring..
thn hear..hear..and i slept......
lucky..nvr catch me..==
Thank god.
LOL.
watevver ==
Tml..nid stay bck discuss project.
ZZZ

nvm.
jy.

AHH.
I havent do my hw.
HLP!
bb.