OLA(:

hihi~
i love this weekend.
Coz now. My hw is like almost done?
except for a dumb D nT hw==
Ughh.
today. lib with jo n geraldine.
LOL
i was in a I LOVE HW mood and jo suddenly call askin whether i wan go lib discuss our sci project..
At first dun wan.. in the end i still got go larr.
my hw mood.
Kind of gone ler.
AHH~
Nvm................
it has been long since i have such goooooddd hw mood.
Haixx. pity ==
lolll..
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
ZZZ?
ok...
i forgotten wat happen.
Byee.


high expectations.
I stand up straight.
Determined to rch my goals.
So high,so high.
I sometimes. Slow down. Ask myself. is it too high for me???
No .actually it is not. Wat i needed is jus hardwork.
H.A.R.D.W.O.R.K.
and i will rch it.

High expectations.
i wrk so hard.
Jus bcoz of my Goals.
is it so important?
Yes. it is. it determined my future.
Yes.
jiayou Cai Ling.
in the middle of my Hardwork.
i kind of fell.
coz of U...
U..this dumbo.
No.
it doesnt affect my goal.

High expectations.
U r gone.
now.
But im feelin empty.
u made me gone through so much.
irrelevant to my goals..
U r gone.
I looked around.
I found out.
I have worked tooo hard..
Tt i fell tons lot in the end.
Yes.
Too high.
Wat cn i do?
Nth.
jiayou Cai Ling.
I hope you wont stress urself too much.
Coz i noe u will.

ME. The determined me. ME. The high expectations me. ME. the too high expectations me.
ME. The finally break down ME.

Olaaaa!!
Tests comin..this wk..nxt wk..Blahhh...ZZ.
From beginning of sch till now dunno how many tests ler..
==
Today Hist.
Ok for me..
Dun think will pass with flying colours..
Ytd maths.
Worstt.luckily is jus class test.
thank god =.=''
Tml..Sci..
Hell. My worst subject ever.
yea.
i have phobia for sci.. ==
I DUN WAN FAIL IT!
Ahh.
ZZZ.
Ytd.. Draw Hist mindmaps draw till siao.
I changed my studying style..
yupyup.
hope will be better than previous one.
(Which is jus read from txtbk. Thn mae me v .confused. Coz my notes scattered everywhr.==)
yeayea.
zzzzzzzzzzzzz.
i cnt stand it..
Every day v. tired...
==
Still got a MAJOR project waiting for me...
Tired. tired. As in physically..not mentally.==
yea..........
Later still nid study sci..
now.. my eyelids like dropping ler...
*YAWN*
Life hard in Sec sch. Kind of. but nvm. i cn manage.
JY~
I will jus do my best in tml test.
Calm~Cai Ling~
okok.
Byee.

Goodbye.U were the past. (:
Thanks for all the experience u gave me. Wonderful ones.

olaola(:

today need go bck sch for "thinking day"
10.15 mus rch.
Early==
Still wanted to slp more..coz ytd facebk till quite late..
ZZZ.
Went indoor stadium...got aircon....SO cold thr..
Is like whole Singapore Brownies and GG go thr lor..
Cedar girls and Raffles girls like v. hyper like tt...
Scary~
haaaa.
Tot will be v. boring...
Turn out to be fun.
Haaaa.
Is like sang quite a number of songs..
Some Sec 1 orientation aso got sing/cheer b4(:
All aso v. nice..Like those kind of childhood songs..
Bring bck sweet memories..
Aso learn more bout GG today...
Lookin even more forward to our training now..after today(:
Yupyupp.
bad thing was at morning...We were forced to stuff in a big packet of chicken rice..when i had tons of noodles for breakfast ler..coz no lunch...
Ugh..
Make me wan vomit..
==
Chicken rice had nvr tasted soooo awful:(
lol.......Um..
Think i had made the right choice(:
haaaaa.
Yupyup...
Ehhh..
U noe.
is like after the thinking day right..
is like i felt v. proud of my CCA.lol.
yea..
like. GG is so wonderful like tt.
Tchers aso v. good.
But v. strict at the same time.
Yea.
hooooo.
im looking forward seeing myself wearing guides uniform(:
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Kind of envy those snrs who got tons of badges sewn onto their uniform.
like they v... outstanding like tt
yuup.
hooooo.
HAAA.
okok

Found out tt.
i still got tons of homework waiting for me..
din touch it yet...
==
and i havent bath(ok..v. dirty..But i suppose u all always do tt == lol)
N havent ate dinner..
and it is 7plus already..
My night is gone ==
Haixx.
nid chiong hw.
Revise for tests comin nxt wk..
==
goin stay late tonight. to revise and hw-ing.(:


CN U ALL TAG ME?
MY TAGBOARD IS DEAD==
bb(:

olaololaoaoalaoaloaloalaola!!!
(:
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Seems like long time since i updatedd??
or nt??
Ummm..
CNY!!!
Went malaysia on monday..
HAA.
Sunday siokwei they all came singapore!! yuxin tooo(:
Tons of fun.
Me n siokwei keep on poking each other. lol.
(:
haaaaaaaaaaaa.
pokepokepokepokepoke.
lol.==
ticklishhhh lor.
Lao Yu sheng damn messy n hyper..
Whole dining table filled with Yu sheng...
Plate..
None..
LOL.
Whole KEE family wore RED SHIRTS~~
Ehhhh~~
Nice right??
Haa.
thinkin of the days i spent with jess sharing bout our memories in our relatives' house...
Haa.
We were kind of boasting bout it(:
Now..Doesnt often do tt...
Haixx.
ZZZ.
goin have tons of tests nxt wk.
No.
This few wks already got alot ler..
.... .....
Mus Do my best!!!!!!
jiayouss~
Haaa.
yupyupyup.
Ummm.
ummmm.
Sick of my blogskin.
==
But lazy change..
Aso v. difficult to find a suitable one for my precious Tagboard:(
wthh.
tml got ccaaaaaa...
Snr told me start at 3.30pm!
Yippee(:
Haaaa.
==

my god.
I suddenly really missed the things i do when i was younger.
really Misseddd..them... :((
I enjoyed them, U noe..
but now..
Thr is nth i cn do...
UGH.
The closest Childhood friend i have is JESS!(got others lar..)
We known each other for... 9 or 10 yrs??
or 11??
Haaa(:
Shared lots of memories with her. yea.
how we sit in the bus sharing everything..we cn...
Talking all the way..
How we shared our money to buy a bowl of Laksa when we both werent hungry but craving for tt..........or buy snacks....So much sweet memories...How we sing a song out loud.. dancing along the corridor...like some mad ppl......did they ever exist today? No...........
thinkin bout last yr.
Bus trip..
i sat with her.
Did we ever tok bout those things tt time???
Dun think so..What we tok bout is..Well..Mayb nth at all??
Disappointed at how things have changed.
Nice ones..
I would choose to stay at the age of 7.
The Yr whr i finally started my journey in pri sch.
But also stayed v. childish.
doin nice stuffs.....
Age of 12.
Hw.
piles of hw.
having problems.
Stupid ones.
Though between them.Thr is some craziness/happiness.
U cn nvr compare it with age 7.
Childish-------i like being childish(:



BB(:
potatoes.

ola(:

Jus went lib .

met up with mingsearn~

LOLLOL.

heee.

He changeddd lots ...

okok luh.

More handsome.

Seriously.

lol.

lollll.....

==

Happy CNY(:

HEEE.

BYE.

haixxxx...

Cnt forget u..

I knew my feelings is fading.

so why would i think of uuuU??

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

Ahhhhhhhh~

HELL.

IT IS SO NOT OVER YET.

I feel like killing myself.

dumb i noe.

im not goin to do tt.

bye.

Bye.

bye.

bye...

olaolaola(:::::

ummmmm.
Today CNY concert sux.. ==
Ughh.
not fun der.
prefer pri sch Concert(:
Yea.
After sch rushed to CCa for celebration.
got gold.
==
ZZZZ.
thn rushed to AIPS<3
So rush lor...
lucky they waited for me for group photo..
heeeeee
Damnnn.
i missed WEiting lehh.
i wan tok to her ==
OMGGG.
i missedddd roy n di~
HOOO.
i went mad seeing them
HOOOO.
HELL. DI so cute lorrrr
AHHHH
AHHH
siaosiao(:
==
(ok. i missed every single friend)
Kays???
Xionggg meeiiiii <3
*knocknockkkk who thr??*
Hee.
keep playin this with her braces.
Bckbone braces.
hoo~
HAA.
i miss seein mingsearn.
din see him
==
i was seriously late....
Um.
told him tml go library.
but mus see first.
Heeeee.eeeee.e.e.e.e.e.e.e
HOOOOOOOOO.
==
hyper.
==
ZZZZZ.
ZZZZ.

today.
feelin weirdweird der.
from morin till now.
i suddenly found out tt.
I dun think it is over yet leh..
time wasted lor.
HEELLL.
UGHHH.
Jo hlp!
Debbie HLP!!!
UGHHHH.
==
V. confused today.
n i dunno why.
Coz not much things happened..
My time is jus ticking by on u..
Disappointed with my actions..
UGH.
Dun say this kind of things.



HOO.
im lookin forward to eh...ehhhh....
teachers DAY!
YUHOO~
(:
(:
(:
(:
ehh.
NO.
lol.
seems tt nxt sat goin mrs tan house.
siao
==
liao..
lol
Haaaaaaa.



CNY!!
valentines day..
==
bb.
BYE.BYE.

jo,gd luck
jus make sure u dun forget me.
Btw.
i got little bad impression on him
LOL
sorry to say tt(sorry to him if he saw this==)
LOLLOLL


ummmm.
Bye.
potatoes!!!
greeennnyyy(:
(:
heeeeeeee.
aips(:

HELLLL.
TWO POSTSS
i noe.
PISSEDD OFFF.
==
ARGHHH.
TML GOT CCAAA!! AHHHHH
DAMMMNNNITTTTT
MY PRI SCH FRIENDSSS
GONE ::(((((((
UGH
UGH
UGH
PISSEDDD.

olaola
(:
HEEEEEE
omggg.
tml goin bck AIPS.
HELL.
so excited!!
AHH.
WAIT
SHIt.
omgg.
dunno whether tml got cca or nt...
==
i will strangle the cca tcher der..
==LOL
HEE.
AHHH!!!!!!!
YEA~
My god.
i missssedddd my pri sch friends.
<3
HOOOOO~~
HEEEEEEE.
HAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
==
==
==
stop.........

ookkookkk.
hee.
im hardwrking.
==
umm..
Wat to update??
My life.
Gettin better each day~
WOOTS~~
HEE(:
BLAH~
BLAH~
BLAH~
:)
:)
:)
Ummm...
Yea.
um....
Yea...
ugh.
dunno wat to blog lorr.
stayed bck with jx..yw...jo.geraldine.aurora.
These few days(:
heee.
Yea.
Aurora n jo n me.
Create a study plan(:
See how hardwrking we r???
Yea.
==
im sayin rubbish..
hoo.
today found out tt jo n me got lots things in common.(n those things r un-common(: )
haa.
Um.........
Gettin over.
Today.
yea.
yea.
quite over(:
Wish u best(:



AH.
Byeeeeee
potatoes.
ate.
by.
Cai Ling.
my.
god.
long time since i ate potato chips.

--XIAO MAO(: --

BBBBBYYEEEEE

Gettin over.
Gettin over.
Though it hurtsss .HEEE.

OLA!!
HEE(:
blahhhh.
Everyone!!
i saw my world.Lighting up.
Get brighter each day(:
HEEE.
DAYLIGHT!
HAAA.
HOOO(:
Yea~
hoooo.
==
==
==
finding my problems..
fading..slowly...(:
But i can sensed it.................
Im prayin.Hard.
They wont come bck.
anymore..~~
Hooo.
BLAH.!!!
HEEE.
HAAA.
omg.
Today 2.4km run==
PE tcher expect us to get Grade A or B.
if not..every PE lesson mus run~
HAAA.
Im so proud of myself.
i managed to get a... B!!!
DAAATAA~
Yea(:
Hooo.
Heeee.
but i wan run again leh.
==
MY GOD.i
love.
Pe.
tons(:
though it is torturing.
I rather run then play games.
Hoo~
HEEE

today.
2concidences.
made me happy(:
but made me kind of sad at the same time..
but thank god for the concidences....
i love it.
un-expected things(:
haaaa.
I noe it is impossible.
But NVM.(:

BTW.
PASSERBY HAS GONE TO WHR?!!?!?!?
I still wan to find out who the person who gave me ...
Ehhh.
Ermmm..
Ehh..
Ehhh.
*cnt find a wrd.*
encouragement???

ola(:

BLAH.
i dunno wat to post.
all sad thing again.
==
Dun wan post.
SAD STUFFS.
UGH.
Seriously.
Life hadnt been good for this one month.
Everything jus happen like tt.
one after another.
n i havent even solve them
==
AH.
NVM.
i will jus try to solve them(:
I WILL HOLD MY PROMISE IN 2009 FOR MYSELF: FACE OBSTACLES BRAVELY(:
HEEE
HAAA
i suddenly found out tt. IM REALLY BRAVE!!!
YEA.
I LOVE THIS POST.
A REALLY POSITIVE ONE!!!
JY CAILING!!!
J
Y
J
Y
J
Y!!!!!!!!!
YEA~

Ola everyone (:

today.
I TRIED to be OPTIMISTIC.
n it kind of works.......
Yea...
I've Finally sort out.
Chapter 2 of my maths.
==
When tcher already tch till chap 5???
Yea. Im slow.......
yea..
Kind of sad..for nth??
um...
==
yea.
Recently really alot problems popped out..
Yea..
So.sort it out.
But.
its difficult...
I mean.
It is difficult for me to remain optimistic at this point of time..Whr every problems jus crashed right in front of me...
I promised myself.
ending of 2009.
I'll Face my Obstacles BRAVELY.
in 2010.
I guess i only completed half of them..
Yea..
I face my obstacles.
But MAYB. not tt bravely..

i've really bcome tons quiet in sch when i rched sec sch..
Whr is the old me???
The REAL hyper me???
The one who is really optimistic n no problems cn let me worry for more than 1 wk....
I din even have time to react to my problems NOW. n everything started to crashed....
U all think it is easy for me???
NO!!!
i tried my v. best.
Yes. It hlps.
But there are still some problems left thr. Im unable to solve.
MAYB wat i nid is time...
Yea...

Wrksheets from tcher..Red marks...
IT IS OK! LEARN FROM MISTAKES...

Personal problems.....
i cn do nth to it.
Jus try my best to think at the good side....

The emo me.....
WHAT CN I DO?????
NTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i've tried my best to be really optimistic.
But.
Nth jus cooperates wif me!!!!!!!
Whr is my Hyper-Happy- spirit.
Whr is the ME????
Living in sorrow everyday.
Waiting my problems to be solved.
i dun hv much time..U noe??
Everything will be too late by then...
U think i wan to be negative???
Nth jus goes right.
Nth makes me happy.
Bombarded with h.w, problems everyday.
HOW DID U ALL EXPECT ME TO BE POSITIVE.
YES.
I TRIED.
IT HLPS.
BUT THERE ARE MUCH MORE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I told myself.
Everything is goin be alright after sometime.
But.
no.Nth. at all.
NTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Leave me alone.
Everyone.
Let me think.
... ... ... ...
-Changing bck to normal-

The sadness is always hidden deep inside me.
U all will nvr sense it.
n mayb.
u all will not be able to hlp me.
Cn u all jus give me some encouragement. Everyday?

to show tt u all care??

To let me be more happy?

CN U ALL DO TT?

I seriously nid those encouragements....to hlp me move on.....................