OLA [:

i've did it , though it might not be well done .

I've tried my best , and im proud of myself :D

The result given might not be as well done as others coz of the tight schedule given .

But well , at least we gave our best ! [:

Woke up earlier today so that the emcees have time to prepare .

Went sch to practice our scripts .

I wasnt feeling tensed up before the concert ...

But when the concert was starting , and we were told to go the the backstage ...

i felt really jumpy . Wtheck , was on the verge of t

ears -.-'

I was lack of confidence then , thinking .

What would happen if we din do our best?

What if we did a really bad job up on stage ?

What if ppl jeer at us for we are only sec1s ?

What if everything goes wrong and the sch is chaos ?

WHAT IF I RUINED THE WHOLE THING ?

Millions of "what if" flashes through my mind... and hence , making me getting more and more worried .

Was really stressed up , jus right bfore the concert .

I could just collapsed on the spot and said I GIVE UP .

Nope , i wont . No matter how tough the th

ing is going to be , im gonna try .... :D

THANKYOU JIKANG AND WEIJIE ,

for being thr , when i needed encouragement most .

For being thr when im about to cry T_T

Thankyou for constantly telling me to chill , calm down ( though u both jus keep on repeating the same stuffs ^^ ) .

You both really boost up my confidence .

*BOW*

Thankyou Liya for giving me a hug , saying , " Goodjob " to me .

At longjohn . That really makes my day . ( though i might not do tt well )

<3

Thankyou murni , jonas and other snrs for guiding us along the way ~

In completing script etc .

Thankyou some other snrs for encouraging me ...

And how could i ever forget jodi ? [:

Thankyou for saying Jiayous to me , giving me tt stupid smile of yours :D

<3<3>

I really love today .

I've gained another awesome experience that im not gonna forget for life :X

I have learnt alot things from these few days .

THINGS GONNA GET HARD , BUT IF U DARE TO OVERCOME THEM . U D I D

I T[:

Ohyea , i rocks :D or.. Potato rocks more ? <:

YTSC <3

Byebye .

CaiLing , Im so proud of you [:

OLA ! (:

We are advertising a SUCKY pizza up thr -.-' !

it sucks totally okay ?! i still cnt forget tt stinky smell of it . wtheck .

okay , we look kinda serious though . not nice ! D:

WATEVER .

I finally had one good news : I PASSED MY ENG ! *claps :D *

lmao . okay , tt stupid .

If u all had noticed , i have been bloggin almost everyday .

woohoo..... :D

OKAY , i have nth to blog today ! buhbye [:

I <3>

OLA [:

Okay , This aint gonna be a emo post AGAIN ! :D

CAI LING IS GONNA BE POSITIVE !

Though my termtests results are... atrocious .

But well , lets remain positive !

It is not the end of the world right ?

i still have my VERY LAST chance , which is EOY .

I'll pray tt nothing goes wrong ...

I'll do my best ( yesh , i said tt alot of times before )

I'll make sure that i'mma goin to the bestclass ! [:

I have started to listen more attentively in class instead of drifting to other planets tt i dun belong to ! :D

Hope tt it will helps , For i once heard a saying , "If you listen in class , you have alr won half the battle . "

I've tried to make myself not so stressed up , so that i have some breathing space for myself :X

Im confident that im gonna make an improvement to my results !

Though i cn foresee that my CA3 results arent gonna be as high as i expected myself to score :X

But .... ITS OKAY ! :D As long as i climb up from my failures :D

Heyhey , FOODFAMILY ! :D

You rocks my life okay ?

U all make my life in secsch sooooo... AWESOME ! \m/

I used to hate secsch so much , it sucks totally D:

But after i've met u all , i suddenly crave to go to sch , so that i cn meet u all ! [:

Although life cn be sucky , or watever .

we are gonna stay together , AS ONE ! [:

okay ? Rmb we have learnt our lesson ?

Thankyou for everything u all had given to me or watever u all had sacrificed for me (HAPPY PRINCE ! ) :D

Byebye :D

I WANT "PHOTOGRAPHING NATURE" by Ralph A. Clevenger !!!!! AHH :D

but it is costly D:

potato !

OHFUCK .

CAI LING , U ought to give urself a one TIGHT SLAP .

Pinch urself , abuse urself .

JUS TRY ANY WAYS TO TORTURE URSELF .

Maybe u will felt tons better after doin tt .

I Flunked My Math Term Test.

This is like my first major test. AND I FLUNKED IT ?!

Fucker _ | _

Disappointment .

I screw every subject manz .

I DIN SCREW FOR OTHER TESTS .

BUT WHEN I HAD MY FUCKING FIRST MAJOR TEST , I SCREW IT .

OMG , CAILING , WAT R U DOIN ALL THESE WHILE .

:/

im such a failure manz .

i wanna abuse myself so tt i might feel better.

Gawd , i seriously needa wake up and stop building castles in the air .

When my maths tcher pass me my paper , she gave me a CAILING , WAT HAPPENED TO U ? look . wtheck , felt darn guilty / disappointed .

SLAP ME D: I GIVE A DAMN TO WATS HAPPENING TO MY RESULT OKAY ?

kns . im gonna stuff myself with FOOD though i need to be on diet -.-' !

BLESS ME . im gonna get even worse results for other subjects . GOD . fuckerfuckerfucker . isuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuckisuck

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isuck isuck isuck isuck isuck !

total epic . jus felt like crying when i saw my marks .

LIFE IS TOUGH D: suckysuckysucky life i had .

LALA . okay , i still <3>

i wanna blog T-T but im lazy to update .

Stupiidddd -.-'

POTATO FTW ?

POTATO FUCK THE WORLD . LMAO .

nope . POTATO FOR THE WIN :D !

OKAY , i love my Fsquare okay ?! LA
FOODFAMILY ROCKS TTC \m/ ROCKYROCKS :D <3<3<3

HATE ME ? i dun give a damn :D

GAWD . i wanna do this D:

Best way to relax -.-' ! :D

Gawd , im still feeling so effing down .

Cai Ling , Wat had happened to you ?

Where had your "Never fail" attiude gone to ? Have you lost it ? Have forgot about it ?

Give yourself a tight slap , maybe you will wake up from your deardear slumber and face the reality waiting for you ahead .

You have been a disappointment recently . For deproving drastically in your studies , for wasting your precious time , which you cn use it to revise/do sth meaningful.

Think about it , WAT HAD HAPPENED TO YOU ?

Cai Ling , You have to set your targets right , pull up your socks and RUN . Can't you see that you are nearing the finishing line . Why did you stop ?! So many ppl are ahead of you now AND you are lacking behind . WAT ARE YOU THINKING ?!

WAT ? You are tired . Does this means that others don't ?

I know , All your efforts are wasted . Revising , doing notes , trying your best . But everything just simply went wrong . This feeling sucks . But wat you do when everything is already over ?

Cai Ling , you revised , you studied hard . But you just cant get the result you WANT .

So , reflect . Wat had gone wrong ? Your way of revision ? Or you are jus plainly too stressed up . God .

Once , you were someone who studied hard and PLAY HARD .

Once , you were someone who just dont get so stressed up over studies .

Once , you were someone who never allowed the word "FAILURE" to exist in your life.

Once , you were someone with high expectations and YOU MET THOSE EXPECTATIONS .

And now . Jus one word . FAILURE !

omg , you sucks ttc ....

Cai Ling , Who are you now ?

Did you even noe WHO YOU ARE NOW ?

Whr have you gone to ? To another side of Earth ?

To a corner of somewhr ?

Pls give yourself some courage to continue this journey .

OMG . This is jus ridiculous. i have no idea wats goin on ._.

OLAAA PPL ! :D

Gawd . It had been a hectic week , with TERM TESTS flowing in . okay , im making a big fuss over it ... but it is my first major test in sec 1 okays ?!! -.-'

Chi was simply Epic-failure . im so disappointed with my results . My standard serio

usly DROPPED . omfg . damn disheartened by my results _ | _ I shall work even harder ! GOGOGO :D

Geog was simply a torture . Seriously , i had no idea wat to ans for almost half the paper . Crappy ans i given , crappy results i received ( okay, din get the paper bck yet . ) =.=' i cnt believe wats happening to me manz ! "CAILING!!!" *pinch myself* GOSH . Felt wretched . GRR T-T

Fortunately , Hist was ok for me -.-' Pray tt it will pull my marks up . GRR .

i desperately need some luck!! AHHHHHH T-T im gettin to anxious over my results till everything simply....droppppppppppp ! stupidstupid . BRR .

okay , Despite all these frustrating stuffs i had -.-' , i still have fun with foodfamily . hmm.

We had a motto : FOOD WILL EXCEL ! *clenched fist and hold it up* (LOL) . this idea came from aurora , who said WE WILL EXCEL ( yesh -- YTSS sch motto) lol . heheheh ! :D

\m/ ! <3

AYE ! jingyee . Everything comes and goes , treat it as a goodgood memory okay ? :D <3

GREEENNN ! give me some hope D:

OLA ! [:

Had study marathon with Jodi and Aurora tday ! (;

grr . Jingyee cnt make it D: !

LOL .

Planned to run to Np with Jodi -.-' But we ended up strolling . We was too obsessed chatting . heh. Ate breakfast at Long John Silver , since we had no idea whr to eat ( We cnt afford mac -.-' )

umumm. Turn out quite scrumptious eh . The sausage rocks ! :D okay, the look of the sandwich is already tempting [: YUMM :D LOL .

Went lib after tt . okay , and we got the biggest shock out of our life ( not tt kuazhang uh) .

We forgotten tt today is public holiday....... plain dumb . Jodi and i was like... OH SHIT T-T .

Flabbergasted. _ | _ we are so stupid manz . Waited for aurora to come . lala . thn we went LongJohnSilver ( Yesh , agn ) to do hmk . EHEH . it cn be a perfect environment for studying okay ? at least it isnt tt noisy like Mac -.-' okay. wateverrr .

finally revised finish my geog . phewwwww . LOL . i din waste my holidays manz . revised like siao , okayy , not tt much actually.. aiyaa . Shall study agn at night .

BUT IM SCARED OF Ghosts ? ass . damn stupid i noe . GRR .

ohoh . let me tell u a story . LOL

Jodi : imagine food family living together when we grow up .

ohoh . if we really live together , one fine day .

When Cai Ling was cooking dinner , Jingyee (the fierce one ) Started to scream .

Cai Ling gotta shock and all the fooooddd was scattered all over. Aurora dashed across , and started to eat the food . (LOL ! ) Whereas Jodi , will have tt heck care attitude , and dialed pizza hut no .

okayy.. School life . Food family will go to the same JC/poly and will take different course tt concern bout business . Together , we will open a fastfood restaurant named FoodFamily (F2-Fsquare) . Our business will prosper and we will have different branches all over the world (Yes, especially Africa . LOL ) . TADAA!

Our life will be simply great :D !

GRR . cnt upload pic . too bad . tday shall be a wordy post -- im sorry . LOL

OLAPPL [:

lala . Friday was seriously a enjoyable day ! :D LOL .

Crawled out of my bed at 4.55am -.-' i had to rch the pavilion outside my sch at bout 530am to tie my braids . grr. Seriously dead tired manz .

Rushed like siao coz i spent too much time tying my stupid scarf ! god . Scarf , Why wont u listen to my hands ? D:

GRR . LOL . Tied braids , dash to YTSS :D

AND . i forgotten to drink my choco milk in haste -.-' during attire check turned without a jerk _|_ haixhaix. Had a crappy morning ~

LOL . Drilled awhile in order to warm us up . but i wasnt nervous at all and i had no idea why --

okay , when the parade was starting , i started having butterflies in my stomach . grr . Wtheck lor . seeing all the ppl , i started to panic . LOL . The parade turns out okay for me . lala .

seriously have a great time standing at the parade square kays ? felt damndamn proud of myself . LOL . sound kinda boastful , but well. okay .watever -.-' LOL .bfore the parade started , we joked around like siao manz . LOL LOL . >< :D GG ! <3

ohoh . after the finale jus rocks ttc! we was like fooling around . screaming ard . HEH . snrs carried Xinxian mam . LOL . and threw her ?!?!? wthfuck T-T

Scary manzz . LOL . damndamn hyper :P

dismissed :D waited for Jodi at Canteen bfore goin for council stuffs. LOL . sherman etc waited with me too , LOL . lala .

After council stuffs , okayokay . UMM . wtheck . longlong story after this T-T im gonna die due to typing too much . okay.

JINGYEE PARTY ! :D

LOL . jodi and i chionged to cold storage to buy all the ingredients we gonna cook [: lala . bought 200g of ham and it COSTED US 8.10dollars. Wtheck ! >< seriously =".="'

Had a fun time shopping at cold storage though . Feels kinda weird wearing guide uni at cold storage -.-''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''' Diao.

Bought our lunch ( jodi was starving then ) , and dashed bck to her house == god . soo damn tired.

We came up with a "find gummies" game at the last min . L O L . deco jodi room a little and hid all the gummies we bought . :D

was eating halfway and Gem , Aurora , Jingyee came up -_-

appalled by their sudden arrival . heh .

LOL .blindfolded jingyee and showed her our decoration. LALA . After tt we had the lame gummy game LOL . okay .watever. seriously i had a great time thr ! :D camwhore time [: <3

LOL . chatted, all these stuffs . LALA .okay .

im lazy to type liao . LOL .

okayokay . had a great time thr aye ? though this time , the celebration was kinda epic , and din turn out like wat we had planned bforehand , but i hope tt jingyee had a great time with us ! ^^

I LOVE FOOD FAMILY ! <3>

Some pics , lol . go to my facebk profile for more :D

OLA PPL ! currently at jodiiiii house [:

Jus came bck from CCA =.='

ahahahahah . okay . lalal :D

i have to report at 6am tml -.-' im gonna diediedie .

lala. my socks are damn messy now . wtfuck .

LOL . byebye . frking lazy to blog liaoooooo . ==

Olaaaaaa ~ :D

NDP rehearsal today :D

im so satisfied with my performance , so happy and proud of GG and myself .

Yeah , our drilling may sucks . but we really train real hard [: and i nvr regretted joining NDP . it is one of my greatest achievements this year .

Training like shit also makes me drilling improved tremendously .

Yes , i may drag my feet home . feeling kinda distressed that our drillings are not up-to-standard. But, at the end of the day . Wat matters most is that we tried our best, did our best .

im actually feeling quite contented that i cn participate in NDP when im only sec 1 . jiayous for friday :D

Oh lord , i have no idea wats goin on now...

Yea.

We talked bout _ till _ is like a piece of shit.

Now ? im not sure. im so surprised u cn actually change so fast in jus a few hours.

Wat is happening nowadays ?

im so disappointed by ur actions. it hurts to see tt . Do you understand how i felt?