I'll make it all right

Uhmmm , this feeling sucks ☝☝☝ ): and i'm feeling it right now . Idk how it happened , but we just drifted away , and we don't even talk , i guess you hate me now huh . Yes , i know i might hurt you at times . But the problem is , i won't even say those mean things to you if you didn't start saying . But you just don't see it , you just keep thinking that it's my fault . Did you realize that ? Did you ? How many times i frowned and shouted at you , but i always simmer down . And you just continue , which is why i will even say that . Yeah , and i want to apologize . You don't even give me a single chance . All you does is to shoot me every single day . Hello , it makes you happy uh ? Then let it be . Shoot till you happy la hor .

Did you even think of how i would feel ? i doubt you did .

okayyyyy ! on a happier note , i'm going out w clique tml (: ! but idk what to wear \: . siansation . Hope everything turns out fine tml !! :D ♥

SEC2 OUTING ! :D

And our butter melted like dk what la ): , set up the fire while others went to the beach , ended having tons of fun w ivan , angela , jodi , sanisah ! :D





OH . SHIT THEM ): , evil people , they pushed me into the sea when we posed for a picture , LOL . They even lied to me that they wanted to push jodi -___-


Chocolate chicken wings made by ivan and benedict , Disgusting max ! :D

awesome ex lc laaaa <3

LOL , kwanliang , sherman and daolong joked around while all of us were super serious talking bout some things :P


The sec2 outing turns out super funnnnnnnnnn (Y) ! :D WAHAHAHA . Left pasirris park at around 10plus . Viresh , Sanisah , Jodi and me decided to call for a cab , since it was super late and sanisah wanted to pee so badly and viresh's parents were about to kill him . HAHA . omg , it so friggin scary to walk to the main road , AHHHHHHHHHHHH T-T . freaked out ): . Chatted w them , super awesome ! -winkwink- ;) lovethemsomuch .

CCA YTD . wah super tiring can , but hweesi made me ROFL on the bus . CANT STAND HER LA but i love her <3 !! my batchmates throw my face totally . HAHAHAHA . they collect balloons from the maybank . omg , and the emcee was like , " OKAY , NOW WE HAVE A BUNCH OF BLUE TSHIRT GIRLS COLLECTING BALLOON SCULPTURE , comecome , dun be shy . " BLAHBLAHBLAH and so on , he just keep crapping bout us -_- paiseh sia .

KAY . im wasting my time here . BYE ;)

GROUP PHOTO : Shah ( trainer ) , Uwais , Rizel , Rahman , Yan Sheng , Tai Jin , Claudia , Yun ni , wenqi , mengying , leona , viresh , kenneth , yewei , Yapkai , KwanLiang , CaiLing !

ALs camp is overrr ! Everything turns out so much better than i thought it would be , omg . Thank god for it (Y) ! Had so much fun and laughters amongst ourselves , esp the CHILLIES . pssttttttttt , love my 16teammates so much ! and of coz the other 62-16 ( count yourself alright ) ALs !!! :D

I miss everyone so much suddenly , siannn .

I miss how Yapkai and I were super blur at the beginning and did not know any of our teammates and we could not sort out the tshirt sizes for them .

I miss how the 16 of us actually became close friends throughout the whole 3days 2nights .

I miss how crappy Viresh and Uwais are , always making the whole group laugh .

I miss how i laughed till i can't stop and almost fell into a deep drain outside -_- , thanks to rizel and uwais , i DID NOT FALL OKAY :D they pushed me up . HAHAHA .

I miss how our group 'cheated' during the card game and even joked around , cheered loudly and received a lecture afterward , i've learnt alot from the gameee !

I miss how Leona always want people to accompany her around , cute max .

I miss all our inside jokes - FROGGIE , Shiny , abs , heavy weight , hiding power , our earthquake effect , everything :')

I miss viresh's "ABS" -___- , how he always asked us if our hand hurts after punching him . hehe .

I miss Claudia being the RADIO (thanks to kwanliang huh ;) ) , her being so helpful always .

I miss shah's crapping , how he always joke around even when he is supposed to be serious .

I miss Uwais putting our green cups on his eyes to represent frog -_- .

I miss how rizel always blushes ;) .

I miss YanSheng cat phrase ! ( BASKET !! )

I miss our cheers , our smiles , our CHILLI CLAP ! -winkwink-

I miss how my group actually makes my camp awesome , memorable for me .

I miss our DORM ! OMG , i miss playing the metal racks w leona before sleeping . HEHE .

I miss the milo , i miss the food , i miss our food cheer , i miss washing the utensils .

I miss the gossiping , allyson's smile and dimples .

I miss how shaky my legs were during the high elements , omg . i'm not going to do it AGAIN , NO WAY . i almost died on top , and thanks to kwanliang for being the belayer , so that we won't fall ! :D

I miss how Taijin always laugh during the meals and made me choke on my bread -'-

I miss mengying , yewei's drawing and insect repellent wristband ( sorry i lost it ): ) , kenneth's muscular power ( HAHA ) , Rahman's random dsiao-ing and his flying kick power !

I miss Yapkai's leading , how organized he is and his ability to lead . I miss Uwais 's super loud voice that always managed to get chillies' attention .

I miss our impromtu camp performance but we enjoyed it yeah ? :)

I miss H.K's mass debrief , his jokes , his CHA CHIKU CHA CHIKU CHA CHA CHA ! , the 62 of us going against the trainers and keep repeating their words till they are super pekchek . WAHAHAHA .

I miss the wide smiles on our face when we finally became ALs instead of ACs .

I miss running around and walking non-stop during land expedition , i was half dead alr , but it was my group that keeps me going .

I miss the pasar malam when we just snatch everything and forgot bout solid fuel ;)

I miss the whole camp , there's so much more to type . omggg ):

I miss drinking tapwater and walking around with our socks , miss the shiokness i felt after the super tiring land expedition BECAUSE OF THE SMILES I SAW ON MY TEAMMATES' FACES .

I miss outdoor cooking when everyone just eat anything on the mess tin , when we got so despo that we eat the maggie before it is cooked .

OKAYOKAY , i shld stop -___-

It was the encouragement that keeps me going , the optimism that makes the camp so successful , the jokes and cheering at the right time , the team bonding games , the moment when we don't give a shit bout gender and just stay together as one always , when everyone clique well together .

GIMME ONE CHILLI CLAP , MUACK PSSTTTTTTTTTTTTT .

♥♥♥♥♥ YOU GUYS !!!!

GIMME ONE AL CLAP , 16CLAPS , ALS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Truly an unforgettable experience .

OH YESH , thanks fangling and qianyu for waiting for me since 8plus till 12plus ! but uh , i disappoint them uh ): , they did not know that i break camp at 4plus ! sorry , and love you babes !

Going to update before going to AL camp tml , not really looking forward . Sigh , no camping mood at all and crap , JODIWONG IS NOT GOING ! Sadded , was hoping that the camp will be much better with her around . But it's alright , i still have Jingyee and Aurora with me ♥ . SANCIA SEAH , don't miss us okay ;) . I reallyreally hope that the camp will run smoothly and i'll get to know more peopleeeeeeee !

Life is really getting more and more screwed due to my suckish mentality . Yeah , my bad . Walao , i reallyreally hate it when my self-esteem drop , seriously . I'm not perfect , i'm not born with flawless skin , with the most beautiful face , i'm not as chio as other girls , i'm not the one with a supersuper awesome character that never fails to attract people . I'm clumsy , blur , rowdy , crappy , average-looking , pms max . idk , i'm just so ... OKAY FORGET IT !

PUAHCAILINGGGG SMILE OKAY CHEER UP OKAY STOP PMSING OKAY !!!!!!

kthxbye . whatameaninglesspost.

OMG . it has been supersuper long since i've updated my super dead blog , i doubt no one reads it now . HAHAHA . okay whatever , have this blogging mood all of the sudden and i think all of you have to wait supersuper long after i post another one after today . HEHE . many things happened during this short period of timeeeeeee (: . My sister going to NARA , qianyu celebration , baking session w my girls , handling my patrol , NDP parade , AIYA , just super lots of ups and downs la hor ;) AND I SURVIVED !! YAYAYAY ! Didn't take much pictures recently , plus im super lazy to upload them ): .

I slept at my parents room for 1week when my sister was away -__- . very scary sleeping alone de leh ! And she bought a bear for me , abit no use uh , BUT THANKYOU ! And she started sharing w me all the things she've done during that 1week -.- . japan sounds alotalot nicer than Singapore . Hahaha (: . That particular week that she was away was really hectic for me , had alot of things to complete and i'm super tired ): , and shitty things happened . but i guessed i managed to get over it yeah ?

NDP parade was fuckin awesome , like finally girlguides improved alot ! :D happy max uh ;) . Trained super hardddddd !

Baking session w my girls was epic , we sucks at baking la hor . That's the only thing i can say , HEHE , and we ended up eating pizza and crapping from morning till nighttime .SHIOK AH ~ But the muffin/cake we baked taste ermm .. okay ~ HEHE , did qianyu card at Jodi house . omg , i love jodiwong :)

Qianyu celebration ytd ! :D woohoooo , went kbox for like 4hours -.- abit too much la hor , and all of us was dead tired after that 4hours . took alotalot of photos but all not nice ley . siansation . Hope that qianyu enjoyed herself , love herrrrrr mannnnnnn :D

Guides was okay recently , tiring i guess . \: I think it's really tough for a sec2 to handle a patrol la , but its okay ! Seeing my patrol members smile really makes my day okay (: !

And i'm waiting for my relatives to arrive nowwww !! Having a BBQ later at ecp , WHO WANT COME ?! :D staying at the chalet there , but i bet i wont catch much sleep , will be crapping w my cousins . omg , the thought of it made me super excited ! :D (Y)

Will update soon , IF I WANT TO . ;)

Kthxbyeeeeeeeeee , life has been great ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .

OMG . ITS BEEN SUPER LONG SINCE I'VE UPDATED . AIYA . WHO CARES :D :D :D .

im more active on twitter ! :D BYE . LOLOL .

Get a life , move on .

The biggest joke in guides - Hweesi :')

The one who is always there for me , Qianyu :')

The one who changed me to become a better person , a braver girl - Murni :')

the most awesome PL - Jasmine :')

Crazy and outgoing girl - Shihui :')

Best patrol on earth , love them so much - Ixora :')

The one who never stops saying , " YOU VERY AUNTIE LEY . " - jolene :')

Chiobu - Nada :')

Best mate , love her so much - Chanfangling :')

Always so loving , always there for me - Jasmine :')

We love mopping ;D

OLAA (: had POP and ROD'11 during last saturday , a really great day . Partied my head off during ROD , long since i've felt this great . It's really fun to hang out with this bunch of Siaozabors , who never fails to put a smile on my face when i'm feeling down and always ready to wipe my tears when i break down . Feel really lucky that i've joined guides , what i intended to join was BAND . LOL , but i ended up selecting guides COZ I DK WHAT CCA I SHOULD GO . Still remember the very first day when i attended CCA , sitting there quietly observing every single person , esp JasmineTan . Hehe . Who knows i actually ended up loving guides ? (: I swear the people there is absolutely funlikecrazytohangoutwith :D Not to forget , the sec4s :D . The ones who get the most credits when it comes to nurturing my batch to become so fuckin awesome la . AHAHAHA , kay . bhb only -.- .

Hahaha , promotion ceremony was scary only . Teared when Angeline ma'am announced my post , glad to say , i've done my parents proud ! :D Congrats to those who managed to receive the post they want ! Combined UG POP afterwards , YILING TURNED THE WRONG SIDE , LIKE PAISEH ONLY LA :D . LMFAO :D . Hope no one spotted it :P .

CCA today , was looking so forward to it . i have to admit it's hard leading a patrol , alone . HAZELLIM , when you come back im gna slap you for pangseh-ing me ): , i almost died . LOL . When the sec1s give you the siandie face and you have no choice but to continue the discussion as you have to submit 2proposals . But i'm sure they will start talking once they are familiar w the new patrol ! YAY :D Really tired after CCA , but it's alright , tired but happy (: !

Speechday rehearsal tml , hope everything turns out well !

byeee (: