Nothing last forever , live it up , drink it down

Screw the ones who hurt you.

2012-02-19T16:23:00.003+08:00

Went scape yesterday, had a celebration for thinking day (: set up a booth for the flea! Scape was flooded with brownies and guides! HAHA. And i spotted this cute brownie and i asked if i can take a picture of her and she posed until damn qiao for me to take! HAHA! Such a cutie ^^
Anw, chiong back to yishun to meet jodi, geraldine and aurora to do identity. Was suppose to go qihua house today, but decided not to, i need a break :/
Really scared and excited for sec3 camp!!! (:

TO THE BEST OF THE BEST

2012-01-29T00:32:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FILIAN LEE!

Hi you motherfuckingawesome human!!!! :) LALALA, it's your BIRTHDAY AGAIN. YES :) and this time, this year, you're going to step into a new stage of your life, which is going to be exciting and fun i guess :D But taking a step forward to this world means more challenges for you. But i believe that you can do it MUAHAHAHAH, anyway you will be coming back often! YAY :D if anything happens, just leave me a text or stuff, i know i've been really busy recently and it's long since i really updated you, but just remember that i've not forgotten bout you! SORRY :P HAHAHAHA, hope you enjoy your day at home... -.- ROTTING! This year is going to be great for you, think positive always. (: and stay strong and happy no matter what happens. AND, i wish you can get into your dk what pilot course in TP, and get to know more bout your ambition even more! Years from now, i want to be sitting in you airplane and you'll be the captain! YAY :) rmb my free ticket also okay, i no money buy airplane ticket ah :( sorry sir, HEHEHEH.

Sorry this post took like 40minutes later, because i was out. YES YKNW. yeap, and hope that having me in your life ( okk as a friend k ) has made your life even better, and that you never regretted knowing me :) i might not be your best friend, but hope that you're glad to know me ^^ okay i know you are ;)

HAHA, time flies, like what we always say. And definitely, we've been through alot. But im glad our friendship is still going, and having you in my life is the best okay! CHIN UP DUDE!!!! :D :D :D :D

Yess, wish you the very best in everything you do in your life, i can foresee you having a really great future ahead yeah! Life's gna be great, don't lose hope and LASTLY,

HAPPYBIRTHDAY!!!!! ♥

shop till i don't drop

2012-01-21T20:54:00.003+08:00

Went town with Elaine and Hazirah today! Didn't buy much, except for 2necklacs, one ring and a high waist short. pfft, wanted to buy some tops. But nothing catches my eyes at all \: , reallyreally hate it when i come home with so little things. Bugis was okay, as usual, i don't know why but i can never buy much at bugis even though there are so many choices for me to choose. Sighhh -____- , so i at KFC for lunch and dinner and i seriously want to be on diet because my friends say i'm growing fat. But i can't help it \:
Chu xi tml!!! :D byeee <3

LIFE'S GREAT BABE!

2012-01-20T19:39:00.004+08:00

LIFE HAS BEEN REALLY HECTIC, WITH MY SCHEDULE PACKED. BUT IT WAS A REALLY FUFILING WEEK :)

Had phototaking session, and half of our class ended up playing small games like, 'chop chilli chop', 'i pass the shoe', 'concentration game' etc! OMG, i swear it was super fun and epic with those slow reactions and us having so much fun playing the games. I'm really glad that our class can clique well together as one even tho it has been 3 weeks only. (YAY!) Definitely having a great time with 3e3, with all our jokes and the awesome peeps! School has been soooooo boring, i swear. and i couldn't keep up with all the topics and tests. I failed my test :( BOOHOO.

'we don't need sec3 camp to be bonded, we already is.'

Moving on, students from sagano high school in japan came to our school for a 3hours exchange programme! omggg, it was fucking awesome ♥ The jap students are so polite and try to understand us even tho there was some communication problems between us. They tried to decipher what singaporeans students and saying even though they really don't understand our chimchim english. Really want to fly to Kyoto right now to find them!!

The boys are super friendly towards girls too! :D tried to start conversations as they look kind of left out and they returned us with really wide smiles and polite answers. -screams- I REALLY WANT A LONGER EXCHANGE WITH THEM. the 3 hours has been GREAT, we had a tour around the school, exchanged name cards, playing games. I reallyreally like the way they always make the effort to let us feel that we're being appreciated. (:

Realized that they are not used to eating spicy food cause they couldn't finish their curry puff and was gulping water! HAHAHAHA, threw them away instead :( sighh, really miss them so much. It was good to get to interact with foreign students when their lifestyle are completely different from ours. Never get bored talking to them! :) LOVE THEM TTM ♥♥♥

ANDDDD, for the event that my two partners and i have been preparing for... CNY CONCERT!!!! :D Was the emcee and i swear my legs feels like jelly when i saw the students streaming in. WALAO EH D: we did screw up, but im really glad that joel was super flexible when it comes to situations like last minute changes to script! really relieved to have him. OHYESSS, and we three has tons of fun during rehearsals, often end up laughing at backstage and hence, not really serious. LMFAO. tried to learn how to shuffle but i end up like some monkey dancing. THAT WAS WHAT VIRESH SAID -____- screw him. AND ELAINE NOSTRILS OPENING SUPER BIG WHEN SINGING! HAHAAHAHAHA, omg! joel and i laughed like some mad person when we saw that. Seriously, this event has left alotalot of memories for me :') it's over like finally, and i really hope we did a good job!! Another experience gained baby! :)

yessss, gained alot of experience throughout this whole week and had soooo much fun despite all the stress and not being able to catch up with my work. It's time to settle down, WHEN IT'S WEEK 3 ALR! HAHAHA, jiayou cailing ;)

HAPPYCHINESENEWYEAR PEEPS!

lazy lazy lazy

2012-01-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOOOO. Long day today, had school(obviously), then chiong to take chinese test and thennnnnn chiong to CCA again! :( After that had dinner @ pastamania with this big clique of mine. And we had fun as usual ;) , even though we always xiasuay ourselves in the public. But aiyaaa, who cares?! :D HAHAHA, really hope to hang out more with them <3 awwwwwww.
Life is @$$&&**(()%@! i really don't want to screw my secondary 3 year up, especially when it is so important. But i just cant get the mood to study/do my homework.
Life has been a disappointment too, but i will get over it and move on with life sooner or later :) and im glad that there are people out there who feel the same as me. (Y) AND TO TSX, cheerup!!!!!!!!!! AIYA, you be our leader okay?! :D You're the best in all our hearts, YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
siao, tml have BMW walk. idk wth is that, but ya -___- have to wake up super early, it is gna be another fun day with my council peeps <3 bye!

Why did we ended up like this ?

2012-01-07T21:58:00.002+08:00

Tough week, but i survived. It is only week 1, upper sec life seems so tough.
Keep going cailing , xoxo .

HAPPYNEWYEAR！

2012-01-01T20:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPYNEW YEAR PEOPLE ! :D yesterday was a fucking awesome day (: Went SSC teoheng with my cousins and sang for 3hours -faints- we all were so damn tired !! :D But it was really cheap , less than 40dollars for 4person . But the room was kinda small , guess that is why it is sooo cheap huh ;) .
Chiong straight to woodlands for countdown CIP there . Caiwei , Kahjun and I were already late and everyone has started packing goodies bags and hanging banners etc ): . It was really tiring to pack goodies bags non stop for like 2hours or so , and we managed to pack ...... 3000 goodies bags !! YAY :D not counting those others packed on 30th dec . Was assigned for crowd control at games booth and i swear it was a total chaos . Was so damn irritated by some small kids who don't listen to what i'm saying and one even scolded vulgar at me !!! OMFGGG , i want to slap him so badly k . Just rolled my eyes at him , cant stand it .
Danced and party till 1plus with zhiquan , sidharda , Leona , Leon , Viresh , Caiwei , Kahjun and some others :) , WAHHHH WAS SO FUCKING HYPED UP MAN !!!!!!!! All of them really made my day !! Managed to reach home at around 3am , but i was all worth it , for all my friends <3 love them alot k ! :)
And not forgetting my two bestfs , BRENNEN NG AND TAN SI XIAN !!! :D They actually came down to woodlands just because i jokingly told them to come and support me on twitter . AWWW , took a pic , and it turns out really bad . HAHA , but who cares la hor !!! Thanks , <3
Really blessed that i get to spend my new year with all these people i love , (; once again , HAPPYNEWYEAR !!!

It was a terrifying experience .

2011-12-30T23:09:00.004+08:00

Life's getting hard , not feeling that good recently . But it still feels good that someone is there for me despite everything that happened . I do not blame anyone for the mental breakdown that happened to me , i just got sick and tired of bottling up everything and laughing all those hurtful comments off like they don't have any effect on me . But they do , i just don't show it out , i just don't want to let people know that i am angry/sad . I'm actually amazed i can hold everything for so long , but i reallyreally hate it when i cry . It just shows that i'm weak , shows that i can't take up challenges and it shows that i'm easily beaten .
But it sucks yknw , when someone jokes till it gets too overboard , and then you realized you have no one that can stand up for you . So in the end , you throw tantrums and your tears are going to flow out any moment but you stopped them just on time . And you hold there for half a day , you go straight to shower once you reached home and all those tears of indignation flows out . YOU WILL FEEL SO ALONE , SO HELPLESS , SO USELESS and that feeling just kills you . It's like a knife stabbing straight into your heart , you hear all the voices in your mind , the flashbacks won't leave your mind . You got so confused between the voices and the splashing of the water on your body . You thought you will feel better after that , but you went to the toilet again , sit on the toilet bowl and cry all over again . I finally know how it really feels like to have a major mental breakdown after two fucking years . Yes , TWO YEARS . Then , you walked out of the toilet like nothing just happened and life goes on . The next day , you will still feel the terrible feeling you experienced , it won't seem to go away . You went out and you see all the fake smiles and you just feel like going home and hide at one corner until you think that everything is alright . You have no idea how the next day is going to be , but you just feel so outcasted by the crowd , the crowd that you once belong to , just because you finally let it all out , just because ... you think that they don't know how you felt . But you cant help but think and think and think . Your mind won't stop at all , it works all day long , all night long . You see your friends hanging out together , but you keep on thinking that they are bad mouthing about you because you had a mental breakdown . Why does it still hurts so much after you cry ? Aren't you suppose to feel better after crying ? ...
Why do i suck so much ? Why can't i just laugh everything off again ? Why can't i just act as if nothing happened , afterall , i did it for two years alr , din i ? Why can't i stop thinking ? Why did this even happened to me ?
Sorry , it might looks like i'm making a big deal out of a small things . But small things do accumulate to big things . Please understand .

Don't stop , keep it moving , put your drinks up !

2011-12-24T21:05:00.003+08:00

HELLO ! :D
Sorry for the lack of updates , Hehehehe . Was really busy with stuffs recently , outings homeworks and proposal ): But i still can't finish my homework and school is starting . Pfft , forget it . HAHAHA :D Had class outing , a half-class outing on Thursday and it was jiajing birthday ! :) So we bought a mini cake for him , and sang birthday song at safra , but it was kind of fail coz we couldnt light up the candle . (: But hope that he had fun !

HAPPYBIRTHDAY JIAJING !

Moving on , i went to gagaflea with qianyu and hweesi yesterday :) it is a blogshop flea that is held around bukit pangjang , located in the flat . Was kind of weird , cause i expected more !! but bought a dress and we went cck aftwards and bought a top there ! Love going shopping with qianyu , LMFAO . she always gives good advices !! :) OHYESS , we took a picture with the model of TBS , a blogshop (: ! Hehehe , had fun ytd !

Went ahchan house today with sandra and we decided to bake , turns out okay . Better than the last time , but it is kind of oily \: . ITS OKAY , HAHAHAHA . :D next time will be better ! and sandra gave me a christmas present , thanks so much <3
Going jingyee house tml , YAY :D another rotting session !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE !

in another life , i will make you stay .

2011-12-03T14:22:00.002+08:00

Shall dedicate this post to my beloved sec1s - Robyn , Wenyu , Akasyah and Wenyu .
I has been around half a year since i took up the responsibility of being a PL , and i'm glad and proud of the 4 of them . They have shown me what they are during this EOY camp and i'm proud that they finally speak up , show more initiative and shine in guides after my endless naggings at them during normal trainings . Yes , i have to admit that they are not the few that has alotalot of potential . But their improvements made me realise that i had made a change in their lives , that i'm not useless at all . They keep me going at my worst times ( including lining and hazel ) because i don't want them to be demoralized due to my lousy spirit . I remember pushing this patrol at the beginning in achieving the best patrol , but i realize it's tiring and we're not enjoying it at all . I then send them this very long msg , explained to them that what's most impt is that they learnt and have fun and not being the best patrol . Wenyu has made me so proud during this camp , she was the one encouraging me instead of me encouraging her . She for once , showed initiative and pushed her camp patrol ;) . Isn't that a great improvement ? As for robyn , she gained alot more confidence and dared to speak up . She has a fucking nice voice i swear !!!! Akasyah , still quite reserved but she can talk very loudly can ! :) Priscilla , she dared to speak in front of the whole company now already . OHMY , im so proud of them !! probably you all are thinking im just some naive person who gives a shit about SPEAKING UP . But i've walked with them through this path and THEY'VE GROWN CAN T_T was thinking bout it while untying knots ytd .
It has never been a easy thing to be a PL , and i've never regretted being one though . My tear was worth it ! HAHAHA , did not expect myself to be at all can ): i might not be the best , but at least i've tried . (;
All the best to them , xoxo .

BABY LET'S GO ~

2011-11-28T20:49:00.004+08:00

DUN HAVE THE MOOD TO REVIVE THIS BLOG ANYMORE .
Going guides camp tml again , BYE -__________-

2011-11-27T15:57:00.002+08:00

HELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D

I'm back from council camp , IT WAS awesomefunexcitingthrillingfunnycrazyhyper-ish. okay , WHICH COUNCIL CAMP ISNT FUN HUH ? :P had tons of fun there , will update again once the photos are up !! This blogpost will be dedicated to my babeeeee..........

LAU

HWEE

Did i mention how much i love herrr ? IT'S HER BIRTHDAY TODAY AND I'M SO SORRY I COULDN'T CELEBRATE FOR YOU COZ I JUST CAME BACK FROM CAMP ): , reassure , a celebration will be coming up and of coz together with my present and card . Aww . Anw , let's do a flashback on how we met ..... OKAY , girl guides and idk what else anymore . HAHAHA . -fail flashback- Anw , we just got closer la !!! and then we kept on going out together and we're are super close friends nowww !!!! :) And she is the one who keeps on making me laugh for no reason , her face is funny enough . -please scroll up and laugh- ohyesss , and remember how we went through camp challenge together ? How i keep pushing all the diagonal lashes to you like you were my junior instead ? ( excuse me, now my diagonal lash very good alr okay ) How we sat on the bus together and cut twines ? How we eat together ? How we went out and you did those unglam actions ? How we celebrated FangLing's bday ? How you celebrate mine too ? :) and us taking alotalot of photos !!!! YAYYYY :) You've given me so much memories that i want forget also can't la !!!!! ): HEHEHEHE . ♥ DO YKNW WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ? You're super super funny ( duh ) , always there for me , helping me TOO , and then you work hard for what you want , But dun overwork yourself okayyyyyyy :) okay la , i want to stop here . I'm going to leave all the things on my card .

last but not least ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

It feels like it was just yesterday ;

2011-11-24T20:55:00.001+08:00

Going to council camp tml .
Till then , xoxo ♥

And then the cold came , the dark days when fear crept into my mind

2011-11-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

Attempted to sneak into a NC16 movie theatre but failed .

It's 11:55pm and i can't sleep , feeling like a total fail after my failed attempt of sneaking so as to watch you are the apple of my eye , which i have been eyeing on before it is even released in Singapore . Feeling so moody right now since i can't get to watch it ...

Having late night chat with my friend , or perhaps close friend . Apparently we are exchanging secrets and complaining about life , HAHA . But at least it keeps me from being bored . YAYYYYYY (;

Feeling abit out of place in guides recently , idk why . Everyone is like meeting up and I'm like #foreveralone which is really pathetic !!!!!!!!! But forget it , bad things don't last after all yeah ? Meeting council peeps for camp identity tml , hope everything goes well . Going to meet my babes aft that !!! :) Really excited . Byeeee !

just be true to who you are

2011-11-18T20:39:00.007+08:00

Went marina barrage with 1/4 of the class and we had so much fun alright ;) Met them at mac at 12pm and the scorching hot weather was really a turn-off man , reached marina barrage and everyone was sweating like some shit . So our mood weren't that great . But geraldine and jingyee suggested to go up to the field and everyone agreed. Thank god luck was on our side and the weather became really windy and cloudy ! A lot of people were flying kites and most of them were pretty big groups . It's my first time seeing so many people at marina barrage . HAHAHA . Played frisbee with tristan , jacky , sixian , jingyee , geraldine , ruiming , jeremy while others were playing poker cards . HAHA :) But the frisbee keep going to the opposite direction coz the wind was too strong ): . Jingyee suggested to take jumpshots so we decided to give it a go , and since we had a PROFESSIONAL PHOTOGRAPHER ( jacky ) with us , so why not ? ;) Who knows we all got addicted to it and we tried taking a successful jumpshot for the group photo , but we kinda failed .

The weather changed afterwards and opposite marina barrage was raining while this part was freaking sunny . OMG T_T it's like the end of the world. Then everyone started running away and we got scared and ran away too . By then , the wind was so strong that the mat we brought was like slapping onto idk whose face when we lifted all the bags that acted as weights. HAHAHA . It was so fucking funny that me and jodi bursted out laughing while RUNNING FOR OUR LIVES T_T And there were 2 wedding couples who went there to take photos but failed !! The moment they reached , it started raining HEAVILY . Pathetic .

Decided to go home afterwards since it was raining (; Really hope to have such awesome outings again soon !! Maybe going out to catch a movie w fangling tml , let's see how it goes !

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ♥

Definitely not a perfect girl , but i'll try to be one

2011-11-15T20:15:00.005+08:00

I HATE SWEET AND SOUR SAUCE , BBQ SAUCE . I love curry sauce . Mcdonalds faster stock up ley . Anw , i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Qianyu , FangLing , Shihui and myself :)

OHYESSSSSSS . I had so much fun with jodi and Geraldine recently , crapping all the way and going home at night . OHYA , i went home at 9plus ytd and i almost died . Zz , all banglas lurking around and i'm super scared , LOL . Almost called my mama to come down to fetch me , but no ! Im not a xiao hai zi anymore , Wahahahaha .
PS : Jellybeans cannot grow (;

Alright , a really short post . Byeeeeeeee peeps !

But he never once promised to stay

2011-11-12T21:38:00.001+08:00

When i realized how much i like you , it was too late and you've already left . It still eats me up , i miss you so badly .

Uncertain

2011-11-04T20:34:00.005+08:00

OLALALALALALA :)

LIFE'S GETTING REALLY BORING RECENTLY D: kay , random . So .... i jio-ed GERALDINE FOE AND TANSIXIAN OUT to sembawang park !! :D WAHAHAHAHAH , i wanted to picked coconut husk for outdoor cooking , but we went there and OMFGGG . the beach is like fucking polluted and we three just stood there , stunned -_____- ohdear , and we started looking around and saw weird things like .... FLOUR ?!?!? we saw a packet of flour on the sand . omg ! disgusted , we decided to change our plan and go to ... NEX ~ but it was super far and we're lazy people ): . so we went J8 instead and i suddenly thought of watching movie , THEN , WE SUDDENLY RMB THAT AMK HUB CATHAY IS MUCH MORE CHEAPER ! and we board the train again . k , ezlink card too much money . HAHA .

Went to AMK HUB and being cheapos , we went fair price to buy popcorns instead , LOL . and geraldine was a disgrace man ;) she hold her bottle of apple tea up high IN THE MIDDLE OF THE EXIT AND SANG : ' IM ON THE EDGE OF GLORY !!!! ' omfg , it was freaking hilarious and i end up laughing like some shit .

Caught 23:59 , and LMFAO TTM . we three got scared and i almost ran out of the theatre k . WE'RE LIKE SITTING IN THE MIDDLE AND AHHHHHHH . CAN YOU IMAGINE ?! the sound effect was fucking loud and i tio scared and i totally jumped -.- Sixian was like hiding behind his bag and geraldine closed her eyes for the whole movie , SHE WASTED HER MONEY !! :P I'M NOT GOING TO WATCH HORROR FILMS ANYMORE !!! unless sb who isn't scared of ghosts is watching w me , LOL . at least got sb to hide behind when i'm like dying there zz .

Anw , it has been a really EPIC DAY WITH THEM ~ and i almost died from laughing ): ...............

GOING JINGYEE HOUSE TML , bye ! ( pardon me for the abrupt ending )

my account was hacked by chanfangling .

2011-11-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

best thing i never had

2011-11-02T21:55:00.003+08:00

Omg fangling is so awesome . And I love her ttc !!!! She never fails to brighten up my crappy life -_- and i really thank her for that! Chanfangling I love you ttm . (:

Lay me down on a bed of roses

2011-10-31T18:36:00.004+08:00

Had KFC with Sandra and Fangling on Saturday night and something really small happened but it totally made my day , even though it was ending . HAHA . Was at the washing area and this small boy was trying to press the tap but failed because he wasn't strong enough . The adult next to him just totally ignored him and went away after washing her hands . Seeing that the little boy was really having a hard time , i helped him and yknw what he did ? He looked up and gave me the widest smile i've ever seen and said thankyou (: when i walked out and went back to my seat , he actually came up to my seat and keep on smiling at me . Yeah , i admit it's nothing much . But he taught me alot . I didn't knew that one simple act can actually bring such joy to me .
I have been so busy trying to keep up with the pace of life and actually failed to slow down and really give a damn about those small little things that have been happening . I finally did and it gave me a reminder to start appreciating .
Just one simple sincere thankyou and a wide smile can totally make my day . Start appreciating and you will realize the beauty of life . (:

and i'm still regretting because i failed to appreciate you . But it's too late . You won't come back to me , will you ?

回忆的时候，有一瞬间是疼痛的，无奈的，绝望的。

2011-10-28T20:15:00.002+08:00

Finally received my gift from JODIWONG . HAHAHA :D okay , super touched :') she bought this sophisticated scrapbook like photo album and pasted a lot of photos and little notes in that greenish book . it's like .. super nice of her okay :)

Yeahh , super green !! (Y) and it printed ''with every good wish" on top , but can't see uh ): Happy girl when i received it .

THANKYOU BABE !!! :) You're da best ♥

Moving on , today is the last day of secondary 2 eh (: !! Time really flies huh , remember beginning of year i was feeling suckish because i really hate being in this class . Like super boring only okay (: but only when the EOY period is nearing then i realize how special this class is , and by the time i actually get to bond with other people , it's too late already . Miss diyana was really sweet to print a lot of different class photos to each and everyone of us and even write a message behind one . ALL DIFFERENT DE OKAY (: and she said it was great to see me worry bout my results . HAHA . sadist ): , but i reallyreally love her even though she can be irritating at times . Which form teachers isn't eh ? ;) and then , miss chiang ! she finally joined us after leaving us for 1year , and the moment she came back , everything changed -_- even more naggings and stuff like that . But well , it was for our own good and it only dawned on me like during ... THIS WEEK ?! HAHA , sorry for being so fail okay . zz .

Yes , and also my dearest classmates which i don't even talk to during sec1 . Seriously , this year has been a blast with all of you . And Tansixian ! HAHA , thank you for being my COLUMN MATE , yeah and thanks to you , i failed to pay attention in class . next time just stfu and stop touching YOUR HAIR , MY WALLET AND MY PHONE OKAY (; don't even know if all of us can be together luh . wtf ._. SAD . And Guanlin , that small chatterbox (: Gem ? the one who always can guess the chimchim words miss chiang gave. weiboon ? the boss of our class .

we might be the least bonded class amongst the whole sec2 cohort but what's really awesome is that , in the end , we actually manage to get together and even have a half-class outing to OCC , when we don't even bother to have a class outing last time . Or even staying back ytd to play murderer and share ghost stories ? (: Thankyou 2e3 for all the memories , i reallyreally love the 40 of you all :)

You're beautiful

2011-10-24T20:44:00.002+08:00

2nd post for the day , and this post is dedicated to SANCIA SEAH because i can't stand her feeling so not confident bout herself all the time when she's sucha wonderful girl . OKAY , LOOK UP THERE , ( please ignore my face ) , SEE THAT PRETTY GIRL ? yeah , she's my bestie and i love her alotalot for who she is . But apparently , she just don't see how beautiful she is and she is constantly stuck in the thinking that , omg-she-is-so-pretty-why-can't-i-be-like-her .

and it's driving me crazy to see her like that , YOU LIDDAT I VERY STRESS YA KNOW ??!!?!?? ):

okay , look sancia seah . NOW GO TO THE FREAKING MIRROR , HAHA . and look into your eyes and tell yourself , " i'm beautiful and I'm going to be a much more confident person from now onwards . " i know this is kind of stupid , but trust me , it works . Have you ever think of another view , instead of "why so many so pretty" , you should think , " okay , she is pretty and i shouldn't feel bad about it because in this world , there is other girls who are not as pretty as me " ? Have you ever wondered how fortunate you are to have such a lovely boyfriend and GIRLFRIENDS ( like me ) and family? and guess what , having the above 3 things are enough to make you happy for life , as in truly happy . After all , they are essential in life yeah ? You don't have to give a fucking damn about how people look at you / your looks , THAT'S HOW OTHER PEOPLE THINK , why you you have to be afraid of judging ? You should face it bravely and say , BRING IT ON DUDE . ( LOL , k lame ) Yea , i used to be like you and jodi had a hard time pulling me out of my mess , i owe her big time . HAHA . But you just gotta sort it out , i've did it , so can you (; Have you ever thought of how many people have said that you're pretty ? Go count girl , go . There's a lot , if you realize (: . See , others have started giving you affirmation so why aren't you accepting them ? Accept it , and be more confident about yourself from now onwards . You're more than what you think . ohyes , SO WHAT IF OTHER PEOPLE ARE PRETTIER THAN YOU ?!!?!?!?! God is fair okay , she is prettier than you , you cfm got sth that she don't have . Everyone is equal .

Stand tall and be proud of what god have given you , you deserve better okay . Don't put yourself down . What for ? you're just making yourself even more miserable when you can lead your life happier . you're shortchanging yourself .

Please do think about it , think positive , i've tried my best to phrase everything so the rest is up to you .

Don't doubt yourself anymore , you're beautiful ♥

I will never regret you, because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed.

2011-10-24T20:08:00.004+08:00

LIFE HAS BEEN AWESOMEEEEEE with my friends around , duhhhh :P went to watch real steel with geraldine and jodi , omggg . super nice movie , worth the money man $___$ HAHA , and that little boy was super cute ♥ Had pepper lunch , Yogurt place after that and we camped there for hours and something happened there which totally threw my face . HAHA :D but aw , its alright . -____- i'm used to it already :P

OCC for bowling todayyyyyy with Jodi , Geraldine , Aurora , Sancia , Weiboon , Ruiming , Kenneth , Jacky , Jeremy , Jiajing , Tristan . HAD A BLAST THERE !!! I din know that bowling can be super fun omgg . HAHA . But i suck at it , LOL . ANDANDAND , my bowling ball slipped off my fingers and rolled backwards to my friends when I'm ready to throw it . okay , i totally paiseh diao can . Embarrassing man . EXCUSE ME , I'm first timer okay :P . Jacky was trying to moonwalk on that super super slippery lane , HAHAHA and Jiajing walked to the middle of the lane to take the stucked bowling ball in the gutter . -___- , whereas weiboon is acting likeaboss as usual ;) .

shit , and it is super addictive and fun with so many awesome people there :)

AND BOWLING IS SUPER THRILLING . YOUR REACTION WILL BE LIKE ......

when your friend strike , HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA . OMG and i got so excited -_- when its not me who strike . hehehe . Most of my ball rolled into the gutter , oh well , forget it . Really looking forward to another trip there with them !! :D

handball tml again , waste time uhhh ):

Kbye (:

OHYA , GO AND TAG PLEASE . my tagboard is brand-new so all my tags are gone . ZZ , and tell me if you want me to link you okay (: I'm super lazy to link everyone :x , plus i lost the link .

matchstick joke

2011-10-20T23:13:00.005+08:00

OLAAAAAA . omg , my blog is like finally edited , all thanks to ....... TANJINGYEE the so not awesome ;) ! i really love her can ?!?!!??!??!!? and i'll insert a tagboard soon .

okay , whatever :P i've been dying to blog , there's so many updates . Hehe :D and i just realized im super inconsistent in blogging , i have that pathetic few posts only T_T

FLEA

Okayyyyyyyyyy , went flea with qianyu to catch IAN FANG selling clothes or whatever la hor . but i dun really give a damn -,- And she wasted alot of money there , ON USELESS STUFF . HEHE :P and i bought some things at really cheap prices , OHYEAH . happygirl97 :D Drank gongcha , addicted to it seriously . Like super nice okay <3 but i find ochado nicer , but i think only chongpang have ):

GRADUATION DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D

As usual , was the prize presentor with jodi and we both were like sweating like some mad dog while arranging those certificates . omggg , it aint easy okay ): but i love this duty . YAY :D

Quite a few cock-ups . HAHA , first time doing duty w/o angela and we both were like imagining her soul beside us . miss her too much la . RETARDS . HAHA .

k i love both of them.

TADAAAAAAA . My birthday ! :D It has been a blast , received a surprise from Qianyu , Angela , Hweesi , Fangling and hongyiiiiiiii :D omg , like a sweet only can !! and i really had no idea that they are going to surprise me and aww , i was supersuper touched okay ! Thanks uh , love you all luh ! ♥ ♥ ♥ ANDDDDDD , they gave me this huge green card AWWWWWWWWWWW . but i had to leave after they surprised me coz i need to go to other places , HEHE . im so sorry ):

soooooooooooooooo , this chanfangling made a video for me and i almost cried again when i saw it , feel so blessed okay ?! AHCHAN , please choose more not-so-unglam- photos next time kay :P

the cake was ruined by fangling -.- and i could not find 'the hidden treasure' in the cake , too bad ):

Thankyou for those wishes , though they made my inbox full and the presents !! :D :D aiya , i very lazy list out the names uh !

REMINDER TO JODI : MY PRESENT !!

kbyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

TO END THIS POST . IM GNA TYPE A S H O R T DEDICATION TO FILIAN LEE . kay , im like super nice okay and you all can skip this part la hor :P

you are the best la , thanks for being there for me always and be honored to be one of those few who've seen the UGLY SIDE of me :P and thanks for not giving up on me when im like super negative -10000000000 . You never failed to pull me out from the mess im in every single time and you did it again , just now ;) wts , stimes i really super glad to have you as my friend , as in really . idk where i will be if not for your help and stuff like that . AWWWWWWWWWW . sorry if i've been really selfish at times , i know okay ?!?!? and for pangseh-ing you halfway through our messages , it's like i keep taking you for granted la . ): work hard for your o's , i know you will . AND TAKE A NICER PICTURE NEXT TIME OKAY . bloopbloop and blahblah . HEH .

I love you more than a love song baby

2011-10-20T22:56:00.001+08:00

Jingyee here wahahaha! Just helped the demanding puahcailing to edit her blog. Now become so much nicer le right?!?!?! :D ♥

BABY YOU LIGHT UP MY WORLD LIKE NOBODY ELSE

2011-10-01T14:12:00.002+08:00

EOY IS COMING . OMGGGGGG and i'm totally slacking HERE . YAY . who cares -.- im gonna do some serious mugging . I swear (: and i have to mug on my birthday ... ): HAPPY MUGGING DAY TO ME . HAPPY MUGGING DAY TO PUAHCAILING ~~~~~ !!!
okay , im just super super bored la .

I LOVE MYSELF ! ♥

I'll make it all right

2011-09-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

Uhmmm , this feeling sucks ☝☝☝ ): and i'm feeling it right now . Idk how it happened , but we just drifted away , and we don't even talk , i guess you hate me now huh . Yes , i know i might hurt you at times . But the problem is , i won't even say those mean things to you if you didn't start saying . But you just don't see it , you just keep thinking that it's my fault . Did you realize that ? Did you ? How many times i frowned and shouted at you , but i always simmer down . And you just continue , which is why i will even say that . Yeah , and i want to apologize . You don't even give me a single chance . All you does is to shoot me every single day . Hello , it makes you happy uh ? Then let it be . Shoot till you happy la hor .

Did you even think of how i would feel ? i doubt you did .

okayyyyy ! on a happier note , i'm going out w clique tml (: ! but idk what to wear \: . siansation . Hope everything turns out fine tml !! :D ♥

2011-09-18T14:30:00.007+08:00

SEC2 OUTING ! :D

And our butter melted like dk what la ): , set up the fire while others went to the beach , ended having tons of fun w ivan , angela , jodi , sanisah ! :D

OH . SHIT THEM ): , evil people , they pushed me into the sea when we posed for a picture , LOL . They even lied to me that they wanted to push jodi -___-

Chocolate chicken wings made by ivan and benedict , Disgusting max ! :D

awesome ex lc laaaa <3

LOL , kwanliang , sherman and daolong joked around while all of us were super serious talking bout some things :P

The sec2 outing turns out super funnnnnnnnnn (Y) ! :D WAHAHAHA . Left pasirris park at around 10plus . Viresh , Sanisah , Jodi and me decided to call for a cab , since it was super late and sanisah wanted to pee so badly and viresh's parents were about to kill him . HAHA . omg , it so friggin scary to walk to the main road , AHHHHHHHHHHHH T-T . freaked out ): . Chatted w them , super awesome ! -winkwink- ;) lovethemsomuch .

CCA YTD . wah super tiring can , but hweesi made me ROFL on the bus . CANT STAND HER LA but i love her <3 !! my batchmates throw my face totally . HAHAHAHA . they collect balloons from the maybank . omg , and the emcee was like , " OKAY , NOW WE HAVE A BUNCH OF BLUE TSHIRT GIRLS COLLECTING BALLOON SCULPTURE , comecome , dun be shy . " BLAHBLAHBLAH and so on , he just keep crapping bout us -_- paiseh sia .

KAY . im wasting my time here . BYE ;)

2011-09-07T21:13:00.004+08:00

GROUP PHOTO : Shah ( trainer ) , Uwais , Rizel , Rahman , Yan Sheng , Tai Jin , Claudia , Yun ni , wenqi , mengying , leona , viresh , kenneth , yewei , Yapkai , KwanLiang , CaiLing !

ALs camp is overrr ! Everything turns out so much better than i thought it would be , omg . Thank god for it (Y) ! Had so much fun and laughters amongst ourselves , esp the CHILLIES . pssttttttttt , love my 16teammates so much ! and of coz the other 62-16 ( count yourself alright ) ALs !!! :D

I miss everyone so much suddenly , siannn .

I miss how Yapkai and I were super blur at the beginning and did not know any of our teammates and we could not sort out the tshirt sizes for them .

I miss how the 16 of us actually became close friends throughout the whole 3days 2nights .

I miss how crappy Viresh and Uwais are , always making the whole group laugh .

I miss how i laughed till i can't stop and almost fell into a deep drain outside -_- , thanks to rizel and uwais , i DID NOT FALL OKAY :D they pushed me up . HAHAHA .

I miss how our group 'cheated' during the card game and even joked around , cheered loudly and received a lecture afterward , i've learnt alot from the gameee !

I miss how Leona always want people to accompany her around , cute max .

I miss all our inside jokes - FROGGIE , Shiny , abs , heavy weight , hiding power , our earthquake effect , everything :')

I miss viresh's "ABS" -___- , how he always asked us if our hand hurts after punching him . hehe .

I miss Claudia being the RADIO (thanks to kwanliang huh ;) ) , her being so helpful always .

I miss shah's crapping , how he always joke around even when he is supposed to be serious .

I miss Uwais putting our green cups on his eyes to represent frog -_- .

I miss how rizel always blushes ;) .

I miss YanSheng cat phrase ! ( BASKET !! )

I miss our cheers , our smiles , our CHILLI CLAP ! -winkwink-

I miss how my group actually makes my camp awesome , memorable for me .

I miss our DORM ! OMG , i miss playing the metal racks w leona before sleeping . HEHE .

I miss the milo , i miss the food , i miss our food cheer , i miss washing the utensils .

I miss the gossiping , allyson's smile and dimples .

I miss how shaky my legs were during the high elements , omg . i'm not going to do it AGAIN , NO WAY . i almost died on top , and thanks to kwanliang for being the belayer , so that we won't fall ! :D

I miss how Taijin always laugh during the meals and made me choke on my bread -'-

I miss mengying , yewei's drawing and insect repellent wristband ( sorry i lost it ): ) , kenneth's muscular power ( HAHA ) , Rahman's random dsiao-ing and his flying kick power !

I miss Yapkai's leading , how organized he is and his ability to lead . I miss Uwais 's super loud voice that always managed to get chillies' attention .

I miss our impromtu camp performance but we enjoyed it yeah ? :)

I miss H.K's mass debrief , his jokes , his CHA CHIKU CHA CHIKU CHA CHA CHA ! , the 62 of us going against the trainers and keep repeating their words till they are super pekchek . WAHAHAHA .

I miss the wide smiles on our face when we finally became ALs instead of ACs .

I miss running around and walking non-stop during land expedition , i was half dead alr , but it was my group that keeps me going .

I miss the pasar malam when we just snatch everything and forgot bout solid fuel ;)

I miss the whole camp , there's so much more to type . omggg ):

I miss drinking tapwater and walking around with our socks , miss the shiokness i felt after the super tiring land expedition BECAUSE OF THE SMILES I SAW ON MY TEAMMATES' FACES .

I miss outdoor cooking when everyone just eat anything on the mess tin , when we got so despo that we eat the maggie before it is cooked .

OKAYOKAY , i shld stop -___-

It was the encouragement that keeps me going , the optimism that makes the camp so successful , the jokes and cheering at the right time , the team bonding games , the moment when we don't give a shit bout gender and just stay together as one always , when everyone clique well together .

GIMME ONE CHILLI CLAP , MUACK PSSTTTTTTTTTTTTT .

♥♥♥♥♥ YOU GUYS !!!!

GIMME ONE AL CLAP , 16CLAPS , ALS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Truly an unforgettable experience .

OH YESH , thanks fangling and qianyu for waiting for me since 8plus till 12plus ! but uh , i disappoint them uh ): , they did not know that i break camp at 4plus ! sorry , and love you babes !

2011-09-04T21:36:00.002+08:00

Going to update before going to AL camp tml , not really looking forward . Sigh , no camping mood at all and crap , JODIWONG IS NOT GOING ! Sadded , was hoping that the camp will be much better with her around . But it's alright , i still have Jingyee and Aurora with me ♥ . SANCIA SEAH , don't miss us okay ;) . I reallyreally hope that the camp will run smoothly and i'll get to know more peopleeeeeeee !

Life is really getting more and more screwed due to my suckish mentality . Yeah , my bad . Walao , i reallyreally hate it when my self-esteem drop , seriously . I'm not perfect , i'm not born with flawless skin , with the most beautiful face , i'm not as chio as other girls , i'm not the one with a supersuper awesome character that never fails to attract people . I'm clumsy , blur , rowdy , crappy , average-looking , pms max . idk , i'm just so ... OKAY FORGET IT !

PUAHCAILINGGGG SMILE OKAY CHEER UP OKAY STOP PMSING OKAY !!!!!!

kthxbye . whatameaninglesspost.

2011-08-29T14:15:00.002+08:00

OMG . it has been supersuper long since i've updated my super dead blog , i doubt no one reads it now . HAHAHA . okay whatever , have this blogging mood all of the sudden and i think all of you have to wait supersuper long after i post another one after today . HEHE . many things happened during this short period of timeeeeeee (: . My sister going to NARA , qianyu celebration , baking session w my girls , handling my patrol , NDP parade , AIYA , just super lots of ups and downs la hor ;) AND I SURVIVED !! YAYAYAY ! Didn't take much pictures recently , plus im super lazy to upload them ): .

I slept at my parents room for 1week when my sister was away -__- . very scary sleeping alone de leh ! And she bought a bear for me , abit no use uh , BUT THANKYOU ! And she started sharing w me all the things she've done during that 1week -.- . japan sounds alotalot nicer than Singapore . Hahaha (: . That particular week that she was away was really hectic for me , had alot of things to complete and i'm super tired ): , and shitty things happened . but i guessed i managed to get over it yeah ?

NDP parade was fuckin awesome , like finally girlguides improved alot ! :D happy max uh ;) . Trained super hardddddd !

Baking session w my girls was epic , we sucks at baking la hor . That's the only thing i can say , HEHE , and we ended up eating pizza and crapping from morning till nighttime .SHIOK AH ~ But the muffin/cake we baked taste ermm .. okay ~ HEHE , did qianyu card at Jodi house . omg , i love jodiwong :)

Qianyu celebration ytd ! :D woohoooo , went kbox for like 4hours -.- abit too much la hor , and all of us was dead tired after that 4hours . took alotalot of photos but all not nice ley . siansation . Hope that qianyu enjoyed herself , love herrrrrr mannnnnnn :D

Guides was okay recently , tiring i guess . \: I think it's really tough for a sec2 to handle a patrol la , but its okay ! Seeing my patrol members smile really makes my day okay (: !

And i'm waiting for my relatives to arrive nowwww !! Having a BBQ later at ecp , WHO WANT COME ?! :D staying at the chalet there , but i bet i wont catch much sleep , will be crapping w my cousins . omg , the thought of it made me super excited ! :D (Y)

Will update soon , IF I WANT TO . ;)

Kthxbyeeeeeeeeee , life has been great ! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .

2011-08-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

OMG . ITS BEEN SUPER LONG SINCE I'VE UPDATED . AIYA . WHO CARES :D :D :D .

im more active on twitter ! :D BYE . LOLOL .

Get a life , move on .

2011-07-01T21:36:00.005+08:00

The biggest joke in guides - Hweesi :')

The one who is always there for me , Qianyu :')

The one who changed me to become a better person , a braver girl - Murni :')

the most awesome PL - Jasmine :')

Crazy and outgoing girl - Shihui :')

Best patrol on earth , love them so much - Ixora :')

The one who never stops saying , " YOU VERY AUNTIE LEY . " - jolene :')

Chiobu - Nada :')

Best mate , love her so much - Chanfangling :')

Always so loving , always there for me - Jasmine :')

We love mopping ;D

OLAA (: had POP and ROD'11 during last saturday , a really great day . Partied my head off during ROD , long since i've felt this great . It's really fun to hang out with this bunch of Siaozabors , who never fails to put a smile on my face when i'm feeling down and always ready to wipe my tears when i break down . Feel really lucky that i've joined guides , what i intended to join was BAND . LOL , but i ended up selecting guides COZ I DK WHAT CCA I SHOULD GO . Still remember the very first day when i attended CCA , sitting there quietly observing every single person , esp JasmineTan . Hehe . Who knows i actually ended up loving guides ? (: I swear the people there is absolutely funlikecrazytohangoutwith :D Not to forget , the sec4s :D . The ones who get the most credits when it comes to nurturing my batch to become so fuckin awesome la . AHAHAHA , kay . bhb only -.- .

Hahaha , promotion ceremony was scary only . Teared when Angeline ma'am announced my post , glad to say , i've done my parents proud ! :D Congrats to those who managed to receive the post they want ! Combined UG POP afterwards , YILING TURNED THE WRONG SIDE , LIKE PAISEH ONLY LA :D . LMFAO :D . Hope no one spotted it :P .

CCA today , was looking so forward to it . i have to admit it's hard leading a patrol , alone . HAZELLIM , when you come back im gna slap you for pangseh-ing me ): , i almost died . LOL . When the sec1s give you the siandie face and you have no choice but to continue the discussion as you have to submit 2proposals . But i'm sure they will start talking once they are familiar w the new patrol ! YAY :D Really tired after CCA , but it's alright , tired but happy (: !

Speechday rehearsal tml , hope everything turns out well !

byeee (:

So not over you

2011-06-18T12:03:00.003+08:00

Currently waiting twitter to load , DAMN LAG CANS . i waited for very long alr -____- . So i got bored and decided to ... BLOG !!!! :D

My family is currently enjoying like some szb at Jurong swimming complex and IM ROTTING AT HOME ): , okay . i shall jio people out later .

Had ROD practice ytd , tiredmax . Went Daiso with FangLing to buy her camp stuffs , having camp next monday , AGAIN -'- . So-not-looking-forward-to-it . ohyesh , met up w huixian aft that and i managed to learn all my dance steps ! :D and i slept damn early ytd . ZzZ , but woke up at ard midnight and couldnt go to sleep D: until an hour ltr .

OKAY , im crapping here . Zomg , twitter isn't loading yet . -'- . SUA , im going out . kthxbye .

You gave me too much to remember .

bigfamily

2011-06-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

OLAA (: Back from council camp , had fun (:

1st day - the first thing i did was pumping -.- , attire fail ahh :x . Did alot of things that day (: , identity , cheers and songs , watermelon game (Y) , eattttttttt , movie screening , sharing session , buddha claps for more than 5mins , sharing our inner thoughts , solved problems , sleep , KNOCK IT DOWN , first impression , partied my heads off w my group , games , potato chips , laughter , claps invented , everyday i'm shuffin , juniors that impress meeeee , last min challenge , RESTART !! , biscuits , FALL IN .

2nd day - breadddd , ham , autograph session ;D , workshops , laughing our heads off at the meditators' skit , watching the video made by weijie and laughing at certain parts , memories , cleaning up toilets , qianbian juniors (: , scissors paper stone , junior giving me a pat on my back and saying goodluck :') , act tall peeps , laughing w rizel during songs session , PT , buddha claps ): , discussions , games , balloooooooooooon , captains ball ! , we will win the war (: ! , prize presentation .

Having ROD rehearsal tml , im finally attending my FIRST practice , aft everyone had rehearsed for around 3times -.- . Life is really busy but fufiling :D !

Breathe slow

2011-06-12T22:26:00.005+08:00

CAMP CHALLENGE'11 ! :D something cropped up and everyone has to break camp earlier ): . so fucking sad cans , no winner or loser in this competition . Good or bad ? \: Have tons of fun w team , even though there were times when all of us were on the verge of breaking down during this vigorous camp competition . But we still managed to survive this camp , go team ! :D

AHAHAHA , epic times when Hweesi scolded everyone and we ended up laughing at her . Can't blame us uh , she is damn joker , even when she's angry . The whole team did not have dinner the second night coz all our food were uncooked -.- . awesome or what ! Should really buck up on our outdoor cooking . AHAHAHA :D Ohyes , and there were times when the whole team was staring at our food , feeling so goddamn hungry but we still waited for everyone to gather so that we can eat . Some of us even took afew small bites . Hehehe (: . Proud of my team , ms soh wanted us to strike our tent and pitched it again during the first day . But we managed to pull through and not be demoralized and our tent was up the fastest ! :D and there were times when shujian and clare became counsellors and started counseling me because i was so depressed over the fact that our team is lagging behind , i love them ♥ .

it's the team spirit that keeps me going .

Went out w qianyu and fangling again ! (: Watched X-men with qianyu afterwards . SO OMFG AWESOME ! :D And the qianbian qianyu got too emotional and cried . Scare the hell outta me -____- . Dinner with her was EVEN MORE QIANBIAN , tsktsk . she can't stop talking lorh ! But i still love her lah hor ♥ ! hadafrigginfuntimewthem.

Deep inside , we both know that it shouldn't end like this .

2011-05-31T20:13:00.002+08:00

OLA . Happy (: , im really happy recently . Being with my cc team and laughing like some mad people every single day is awesome . We laugh at the most retarded things and hweesi's laughter never failed to make us laugh too . Contagious laughter (: . There were times when we got so pissed off and started quarreling , when our morale was so low and there wasnt anyone to boost it , when we felt the sense of satisfactory and we went around shouting , when we give each other a BIGBIG smile and assured everyone that everything is gna be alright .

Competition in just 3days time , we will do it ! :D Come on , we got to win this and i'm sure we will ! WOOLALA , we will survive this camp competition okayy ! :D

Ohyes , i witness an incident today and it actually got me to do some reflections on my current life . I was on bus and feeling damn bored . I spotted this 6year old kid on the bus with his parents and around 4year old sister . His parents let his sister sit alone , while he was sitting on the other seat and his parents in front of them . When the bus stopped , he hugged his sister so that she won't fall . When the bus made a turn , he hugged his sister even tighter and even carried her onto his lap . :')

i should really start caring more about my family members and not staying in my own fucking world once i got home .

Strong.

2011-05-31T19:43:00.003+08:00

TANJINGYEE ! (:

You okay ? Hows life at malaysia ? Hows life seeing those teary faces everyday ? Hows life w/o us ? i miss you all so much , miss the crappings and retarded actions , miss laughing every single day with all of you . I miss seeing you all , it has been long since we met up yeah ? (: I know you will be sick of seeing blogpost dedications , but i can't help but write you one . i know we might have said it umpteen times before , but i wanna highlight that WE WILL BE HERE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS :D

Yes , look , we will stay strong as one and continue moving forward everyday . It has been hard for you , this heart wrenching news and your tight schedule . It's getting stressful , i know , we know . Please don't bottle everything to yourself , it hurts to see you in this state .

Come back soon ! :D We're all waiting for you , waiting to see the annoying bitch back againnnnnnnnnnnn :D ! Anything just gimme a call , i won't mind picking up the phone even though my bill gna overshoot . Hehehe (: .

we love you .

Hate being here .

2011-05-22T14:15:00.004+08:00

OKAY , im really getting bored here so i decided to blog . Feel like deleting this dead blog , nothing to blog at all recently . AHAHA . I'm really getting really busy recently , competition trainings , council things , outings etc . WTF , im suppose to relax aft MYE T-T and im getting really lazy okayy .

Had a really great time w jodi and my junior aft council rehearsal two days ago . Went LJS for dinner and had a really long chat w them . They slap some senses into me and the burden is finally gone after so long . The advices and lecture my junior gave me made me respected him alot ( he is 16 though -.- ) , he taught me things that no one really teach me bfore . The things he told me totally made a drastic change in terms of my personality . he made me wna change for the better and i have to . Yes , i thank him and jodi for that (:

Council investiture tml ! :D not really excited for it , but the thought of sec4s stepping is quite sad huh \: Had fun under their lead for council to become a even better place . :D

BYE (:

IM FREE .

2011-05-16T20:52:00.003+08:00

MYE IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !

Forget yours.

2011-05-16T20:19:00.004+08:00

Happybirthday girls !

2011-05-15T14:12:00.003+08:00

CHANFANGLING ♥

CHANFANGLING , it's your birthdayyy ! :D yayyayyy . Hope you enjoy ytd , the fail surprise , the polariods , the tikopek , the neoprints , singing K , the lame jokes that hweesi said . Yes , you btr enjoy okayy ! I throw aside my fucking sci just for you babe (: . You're 14 already ! (: , very fast huh . BE MORE MATURE AND STOP BHB-ing . I think both of us are complain queens eh , we never fail to complain when we both get together . But who cares !

I lovedie the moments i shared w you alright . They're so damn awesome . *points to my heart* , see , all the memories are kept there . NO ONE CAN TAKE THEM AWAY ! (: 1year plus and our friendship is still going on strong .

I love you very muchie ♡

HAPPYBIRTHDAY !

everything is written on my card , so NTH TO WRITE HERE :D

AURORACHAN♥

Aurorachan , i bet you'll be moved to tears after you read Jingyee's dedication post for ya :') . That's one of the sweetest dedication i've ever read okayy ! You're really fortunate to KNOW US OKAY *winks* . :D

Hey girl , i really love you . i love everything bout you , even your imperfections because they made up who you are . i love how loyal you're to your choco milk and chess and how you always give quality work to teachers , and how you always rebutt to the teachers when ya know it isnt right , your -.- face , your " WO BU YAO GEN NI MEN JIANG HUA LIAO . " when you always end up talking to us after few minutes ;D , you trying to stop us when we do sth insane , guess you are the only sane one in our clique uhh ! :D , how you judge people just by their looks but you are always right , how straightforward you are , your helpfulness ! :D YAYAY , no matter how much people think that you ain't fit in our clique , YOU STILL ARE IN OUR HEART OKAY !

PUAHCAILING LOVES YOU ♡

HAPPYBIRTHDAY !

I will break the chains that bind me ; happiness will find me

2011-04-30T16:57:00.003+08:00

OLAAA :D

Went jodi house a few days ago with clique ;D , fun time there . Jodi , Aurora and I started some crap topics after Jingyee and Sancia left and it was superb hilarious :D . Laughters - awkward silence - laughters . Never get bored w them around , sb will crack some jokes and the whole clique will burst out laughing . We will jump from one topic to another , endless things to share to them . I really love them <:

MYE is coming , started my revision and im half dead now . Im not even halfway through . I reallyreally hate exams ): Who don't ? Hope i can scrap through , all the best (Y) .

Life has been in a mess , but it's sorting out by itself currently . Things are changing for the better , and i'm so glad they are huh (: .

FANGLING AND AURORACHAN BIRTHDAY COMING UP , im friggin excited ♥

Bye .

The stars lean down to kiss you ♥

2011-04-23T20:25:00.007+08:00

OLA ! :D I LOVE YOGURT !

Met up w supplier today with CHANFANGLING ~ we went Nex and junction 8 bfore meeting up . Saw this really cute shop named SOGURT at Nex . AHAHAHA , dragged Fangling in , and it ended up something like a DIY yogurt shop (Y) , you have to design your own yogurt and you are supposed to take any amount of yogurt you likeeeeeee . They will then weigh your yogurt and TADAAA ~ obviously you have to pay --' . Cool only ;D . Spent around 8plus on the yogurt .

Cute rightttt <: , lovedie the shop !

I'm a happy girl when i get to eat yogurt !

Changed my blogskin , like finally (: .

BYEEEEEE :D

2011-04-22T21:48:00.001+08:00

Life is too ironic to fully understand. It takes sadness to know what happiness is. Noise to appreciate silence & absence to value presence . ♥

I love life (:

Move on .

2011-04-22T20:04:00.002+08:00

ILOVEELAINENGTTC ! ♥

Thanks for the hell lots memories babe , though some were unpleasant , but most were AWESOME yeah ! :D Thanks for standing up for me when i encountered those incidents when i'm really helpless , you confronted him , you scolded him and guess what ? you're the only girl that i've met who actually help when you see your bestf being bullied , thanks babe . YOU DUN GIVE A DAMN BOUT HOW YOUR REPUTATION IS GNA SUFFER . You don't know how much it really meant to me , it made a huge impact on my life . I'm so proud to have you as my bestfriend .

Much love ♥

CHUAH QINGLE , LEE MINXUE , JESS GOH , WEITINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG .

i love you all too okay (: !

Cause baby i was born this way

2011-04-15T19:42:00.003+08:00

OLAAA ! I loveeeeedieeeee ♥ my girlfriends (: ! Jodiwong , Tanjingyee , Aurorachan , Sancia seahhhhhhhh ! My awesome babes ;D I can't live w/o them yeah <: , we all crapped alot recently . Especially during recess -____- , life is awesome with them around . I know i'm not in a really good sate recently , thanks for tolerating all my nonsense :') .

Getting really easily frustrated nowadays . MYE is coming , stressed up . Plus people around me gets too overboard at times . -___- SO YEAH , don't piss me off anymore .

I really miss having CCA right now , life gets a little too dull w/o it ): . UHHUH ~ Intensive camp challenge trainings aft MYE . We are left with 2weeks to train for national competition , like wth only T-T . Oh gadgets , imma back again ~ Oh tent pitching , pls don't torture me to death ~ Oh PT , pls dun be too tough . Running around the school -__- . shitmylife . OKAY , though running can be fun too (: ~ CAMP CHALLENGE ALL THE WAYYYYYY ! :D

Ohyeah , the new batch of councilors (Y)

bye (:

Hate to stare , but you are winning .

2011-04-14T21:20:00.004+08:00

OLA ! :D

Have tons of updates about lifeeeeee (: . Clique snowing iceeeee (Y) , carnival , crapping session w deb , jodi , aurora and more (L) I know im neglecting this pathetic blog hereeeeeeeee (: , but too bad ! I totally no mood to update \: , plus no time .

I PROMISE TO HAVE A PROPER POST SOON YEAH ? :D

BYEEEEEEEEE (:

We did it .

2011-04-02T22:51:00.002+08:00

WE DID IT (: .

North-D started off w a BANGGG ~ (: . Gateway team was really hyper and we were so friggin excited for the competition . 20mins left , cocked ups . Our design don't works at all . 20mins , we were only left w fucking 20mins . We had to change our design on spot . Everyone started screaming and shouting , faces were scrunched up , trying to think of a perfect solution . Sweats kept on dripping down , we had no time left . We panicked . WE PANICKED . Everything seems to go wrong that point of time . No choice , 5mins left . We had to dismantle the poles and act accordingly . Ended our very last lashing just right on time .

Disappointed ttm only . Almost teared . But gateway team managed to cheer each other up by thinking of the epic actions we did when panicking during the last 20mins .

" HOLD UP . TIGHTER , KEEP IT STRAIGHT ! "

" NADA , GAUGE . FASTER !!! "

" WHY YOU UNTIE THAT KNOT ? "

" WE NO TIME ALR ! 5moremins . "

" CAILING , FASTER . FASTERR !! "

" Okay , shuddup AND GET BACK TO YOUR KNOTS . "

" WTF ! WHY CANT ?! "

" I CANT TIE THIS THING UP . CAN'T WORK . I NEED SB TO HLP ME SUPPORT IT . TOO HEAVY ALR . HOWHOWHOW ?! "

" FRAP . FRAP THAT PART . EVERYTHING WILL BE TIGHTER . "

Huixian scolding us during the competition , Nada staying calm all the way but got really worked up coz nothing goes RIGHT , Hweesi 's fingers kenna the pole , like pain only , FangLing panicking all the way , shouting and screaming . But guess what ? Our revolving door was the most stable this time round . Like proud only :') . Sliding door was suckish .

Prize presentation .

Tent pitching , " and the first prize goes to .. YISHUNTOWNFIRSTCOY . "

Flagstaff , " and the first prize goes to .. YISHUNTOWNFIRSTCOY . "

GATEWAY , " and the first prize goes to .. YISUHNTOWNFIRSTCOY . "

fml , my heart skipped a beat , and i went screaming like a mad woman . WE MADE IT THRU .

Kitchen dresser , " and the second prize goes to .. YISHUNTOWNFIRSTCOY . "

Outdoor games , " and the first prize goes to .. YISHUNTOWNFIRSTCOY . "

We clinched first for 4 out of the 5components and a 2nd place . Our hard work paid off . (:

All the way , north-d team .

Next up is camp challenge . 4days 3nights camp competition , We can do it , like how we always did .

How can i forget someone who gave me so much to remember ?

2011-03-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

OLAAA (: . Training was ... suckish today . Last training and we din had the right morale . Hence , our gateway was .... -.- .... totally no confidence for sat yeah \: . Tired max , but i have tons of homework today . Teachers love to give homework at the wrong time . -.- . Damn life huh .

yishuntownfirstcoy . yishuntownfirstcoy . yishuntownfirstcoy . yishuntownfirstcoy .

It's so hard to let go . It's stupid to hold onto something that just keeps hurting you, but it's also stupid to let go of everything you ever wanted.

Yishun Town First COY ! :D

2011-03-26T21:07:00.007+08:00

Isn't he cute ? (:

OLA :D ! im running out of pictures to post , no time take pics lahhs . Had north-d training today ! :D rawrs , CHANFANGLING ! PANGSEH US UH :D (L) Today training was really tiring . Chionged gateway like shit . 1hour 1min <: . WE CAN DO ITTT ! :D YISHUNTOWN FIRST COY YEAH ? Must keep repeating so we can win :D . Ms see treated the whole north-d team jollibean aft training . THANKS MS SEE (L)

BYE :D

ALL THE WAY GATEWAY - Hweesi , Huixian , Nada , Fangling , CaiLing (L) ! :D

Life will still be awesome w/o you (:

2011-03-20T15:52:00.003+08:00

♥ Everyone loves Jollibean ♥

OLA (: ! Hoohoo , my sorethroat is kinda gone (: , so imma feeling HAPPAYEEE NOW ! :D Yayy . Tried Grape Yogurt Aloe Vera From Ochado ytd . Taste awesome kay :D . I kind of prefer Ochado over KOI nao . AHAHHA :D ! You all should give it a try sometimes . Im suppose to do my holiday homework . But oh well , no mood lah hor . Shall chiong it later on . Wish me good luck . BYEEEEEE :D

Ohfuck , good news : GATEWAY WAS A SUCCESS ! :D Can't wait to see the new design .

Give me all your love .

2011-03-19T12:35:00.003+08:00

OLA .

im like feeling so fuckedup now . Im sick . i cant go for sjabflagday , which is the only thing that im looking forward to for this whole week , i cant go for northd training . I cant do my hmwk , i cant talk that much coz my throat is damn pain , i cant do anything but SLEEP -.- .

fml . fml . fml . fml . fml .

2011-03-13T01:13:00.003+08:00

OLA ! :D uhhuh , i getting bored to tears so i decided to blog -.- , if not i cant be bother w it anymore (: . CCA today was okayokay (: , expected it to be better though . Maybe coz i was feeling quite down at that point of time . Tying the knots was ... painful ): . Have to pull and apply alot of strength yeah . Im actually looking forward to the full day training next wk (Y) ! One whole day spent w my gateway peopleeee , awesome or what <: . But the thought of tying and dismantling everything made me damn sian can . Ahahaha , i hope that our gateway will turn out well (: . Competition date is approaching . fuckmylife .

Okay , im like crapping here . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . im bored . ): .

Life isnt exactly awesome -___- . But i cant do anything currently . No mood at all . Emotionless . Life reallyreallyreally sucks .

BYE .

And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me ; Everyday I will remind you .

2011-03-12T21:48:00.001+08:00

Fight till forever (:

2011-03-10T22:59:00.005+08:00

Sing till highhigh agn kay ? (:

YKNW. THE EXCITEMENT YOU GET WHEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE GNA SEE SOOOOO MANYYY CUTE KIDSSSS TML ?! YEAHYEAH . I CANT SLP NOW . IM SO FUCKING EXICTED . YAYAYAY . I LOVE KIDS YEAH . IM GNA KIDNAP THE CUTEST ONE THE HOME . DUN SNATCH FROM ME . HE/SHE IS MINE . YAYAY . TML TML TML . YAYAY .

2011-03-09T21:17:00.002+08:00

OLA (: ! Heritage trail turns out so much better than i thought it would be (Y) ! :D Bus ride w Jodi . Our epic conversation - Miss diyana heard everything . Shitmylife ): . I think she knew both of our secrets now T-T . We were sitting directly behind Ms Diyana and once the both of us settle down , we started blabbering non-stop . -,- . AND WE FAILED TO NOTICE THAT WE SPOKE TOO LOUDLY . AHHHH . oh whatever , who cares (: . Our conver rocks the shit off (Y) . Wild imagination (Y) ! :D ilovejodiwong ! (: (L) .

YAYAY . Group 4 rocks the shit off yeah . We brought the most snacks there (: . PICNICCCCCC ! :D We did so many epic things together ! :D Boomboomboom . Left right left right left right . AHAHAHA . we stomped our feets while walking so that we can get rid of the red ants -.- . retarded or what ?! But our coordination is good okayy :D . And We tio scolded by tcher for being noisy . ): . HEHEHE . Everyone crowded around poor zhongquan to snatch away all his tidbits (: . BWAHAHAHA . MY GROUP IS AWESOME YEAH ;D . rofl (Y) .

Had KFC w sancia , jingyee , aurora ! :D LMAO . We mixed everything the leftovers all together . Eeyer -.- . Fun time w them ! :D went back sch (AGN) ! OKAY . EVEN MORE EPIC THINGS HAPPENED . YAYAY .

IMMA HAPPY GIRL TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ! ;D

2011-03-05T20:32:00.007+08:00

I LOVE THEM ! :D

OLAA (: ! Damn life huh , totally screwed it recently . Oh well , i've learnt to stay happy and not put on a fucking mask everywhere i go . STAY STRONG PEOPLE <3> North-D training today . Totally disappointed with our ideas and stuffs , it goddamn hard to really draft out a gateway that works . People broke down , quarrels , misunderstandings . But everything will be alright ! Yayayyyy (: !

im losing my interest in blogging . BYEEE . -.-

2011-03-02T21:38:00.002+08:00

I regretted , alot (: . But yknw what ? it's too late . I had this perfect chance standing right bfore me , for months . MONTHS . i just treated it as though its invisible and refused to take a good look at it . I don't even give a damn about it and tried to deceive myself by thinking that i dun like you . Stupid or what ? Surprisingly , i did it . yayy . happy or what ? i was happy . But now ? im not (: . i realized how blind and dumb i were , for not cherishing this chance . Now i lost it , i felt so bad ... i failed to treasure this awesome guy right in front of me :D .

I was looking through all the msgs i stored in my phone just now . okay , i admit i do read them every night . They motivate me to strive for the better EVERY SINGLE DAY . Heheh , shocked ?

Im so fucking piss at myself when i read those msgs (: . i . actually . lost . such . a . great . chance . i hate myself .

2011-02-26T23:27:00.001+08:00

GIRLF HOUSE WAS AWESOME . BUT SHE FREAKED ME OUT . EFF HER , I LOVE HER ! :D

2011-02-25T23:16:00.005+08:00

OLA (: It has been long since i had a proper update :D Just cant get the blogging mood back (: . Was browsing through pictures of clique on facebk just now (: awww , i rmb our breakfast at yakunnn :D ! I added lots and lots on pepper into aurora's half-boiled eggs -.- . And she went kinda mad and all the naggings cameeeee . :D keke . FnN ! :D We made the cornflakes thingy :D Rmbbb (: ? i took a damn chio pic w jodi (Y) ! One of our chioest kayy :D Laughs . Miss those times . yayayyy , cross country ! Aft Aurora went to get her medal , i took a picture of her w it and her favourite obsession - choco milk (Y) ! I still had that picture in my phone (: . Those are the littletweenytiny things that made up my sec1 life :D . Life has never been smooth going , but these joy just keep me going :D . ILOVEJODIWONG , TANJINGYEE , AURORA CHAN ! ♥

Last training w sec4s today . Fast isnt it ? (: . i wasnt expecting them to step down this soon . I will always rmb IXORAAA ! (: Jasmine-the noisy one , Stephanie-the funny and anti-social one , Darla- the one who talks to herself , Czarina-the one who cracks jokes at random moments , Hazel-the violent one , Me ! :D ♥ They made up who i am in guides now . I thought my life in guides was gna be real boring when i first get to interact with my patrol . Hazel and Czarina just totally gave us the sian face (Which obviously made me sian too). Jasmine and Stephanie somehow ran out of topic halfway through and there was this awkward silence between us . But our patrol ended up being so cool :D . We were the patrol that slacks the most - poking bluetacks and laughing at how weird we are and smacking people legs when we are bored , not serious during most of the time , seldom clinched first for inter patrol competition . But at the end of the day , our patrol was the one that laughed the most , shared the most joy and laughter . :') ♥ I kept on telling my patrol sec1 guides how awesome we are . But i doubt they gettit (: , coz all of us ended up laughing halfway through our sharing session :D . Yeah , im gna miss this patrol alot . The memories we've shared - i just simply cant express all of them through words . (:

Thanks IXORA (: . JASMINE ! You've been a wonderful PL :D i mean it :D . ILY (: ♥

STEPHANIE ! PSPSPS :D the only one who din join us when we were poking bluetacks (: RMBBBB ? Yeahh , but i still loveyou as much (: ♥

Training was fun . As usual , everyone went hyper . (: . Everyone just slacked for the knots and lashing part :P , but they get serious when it comes to making cards for seniors . Captains ball was cancelled due to bad weather . But it did not dampened our mood ! (: Singsation turns out to be one of the best part of today training . (L)

Byeee (: Life is still awesome though i screwed my papers :D !

LIMQIANYU . THIS IS FOR YOU , as i promise . ILOVEYOUSOMUCH ALRIGHT ! :D YAY , lets go crazy over jjlin again , starts to camwhore near the guard post yeah :D !

2011-02-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

TERM TESTS ARE DRVING ME CRAZY , SERIOUSLY .

I want those hell trainings back ;

2011-02-19T23:45:00.003+08:00

My babeee ! (:

Cute or what (: !

When we were on the brim of tears :')

We were trying to show how high our socks are -.- HELL TRAINING AT HQ !

OLA ! :D thinking day colour party was success ! (: . Success had never felt so sweet , we din expect everything to go so smoothly ! BELINDA , FANGLING , ME ! :D thanks for everything (: . one month or so actually went past so quickly . We all dreaded going to HQ , those hell trainings made us half dead everytime . WE ALL WANTED THIS THING TO END . At the moment when the emcee marks the end of the thinking day , this sudden gush of emotions went through me . WE'VE GOT THROUGH IT (: . But guess what ? i missed those tranings now , i want those moments back , those scoldings from ms hanznah (: . Awesome experience , really (: . i've met new friends , pushed myself to a even higher level whr i won't even dream of me reaching , i've gained alot of experiences and brushed up my drillings . I learnt how to love life and enjoy these torturous trainings .

I've never ever regretted joining color party ! :D

Ytgg ftw ! :D

Thinking Day color party ftw ! :D

2011-02-11T21:29:00.003+08:00

CUTE (: !

OLAOLA ! :D . Life aint awesome at all ): . hell no ): . Tests coming up alr , have to chionggg uhh (: . Not much time for blogging . Sorryyyy ppplll ! (: .

IM SO FUCKING PROUD OF YOU (: ! (Y)

2011-02-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

I want to go back to the time when my life still revolves ard playground .

Im a happy girl when i get to play swings and slides ! (:

2011-02-10T21:47:00.003+08:00

CHANFANGLING ' GIRLF ! (L)

Girlf ! (: . This post is for you kayyy (: . must tag me aft reading hor (: . Dun so stressed up , dun so emo , dun keep zoning out , dun keep sad face , dun keep ' I VERY SIANZXC ! ' , dun keep ' I want die liao ' . Dun die kays , i'll be fucking sad T.T !!! Must stay happy and smileeeee forever no matter what happens hor ! I knw you cant handle all these things at once , yeahh(: . My things are getting out of control too . hoohoo ! But nehminds :D , its alright ! You must learn how to cope w it and try to handle your stress yeah ! Yknw what ? i miss your cheerfulness hell lots ): . PUAHCAILING misses your siaoness , cheerfulness , your msgs with SMILEY FACES :D in them yeah ! Rmb how you used to be like ? keke (: . Our heart to heart talks and complaining sessions :D . It has been long since we had one yeah ?

Throw everything away aside , sit down and think , THINK . Clear your thoughts , maybe you will find out that things aint that messed up in your life ! :D . Dun keep on thinking how busy you are , think of how fulfilling your life is with all these activities going on . (: . Think positive always . YOU HAVE ENOUGH TIME . IT JUST DEPENDS ON HOW YOU MAKE USE OF IT ! :D

Jiayous babe (: ! I'll be here always ! :D As always , i love you sososo much (L) .

2011-02-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

Yknw what warms me most ? It is when my girlfs are there for me , even if their life is in a mess , Via ebuddy , msgs . Jodiwong and TanJingyee (: . Thankyous so much , those advices help alot , really (: . This is really hard , isnt it ? I know it is , but i just cant hlp but keep thinking bout it . But i promise , im gna get through this ! :D Loveyouallsomuch (L) . AURORA CHAN ! CHAN FANG LING ! ily too (:

I shall drown myself w studies (:

2011-02-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

Everything went pingpiangpong today and im feeling like bullshitzxc now . But im a happy girl no matter what !

"Amazing how you can just take life that easily , amazing how you can take life as it's given " (:

Din take pictures today . I BO MOOD AH . -'-

2011-02-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPYCHINESENEWYEAR ! :D

OLA :D ! Reunion Tea on tuesday (: . IT SOUNDS DUMB YEAH :D . But it turns out to be sososo fun \m/ ! (: . I was blabbering non - stop to the sec1s in my patrol , and all they gave me is a shy smile on their face !!!! ): . *throat dry* ! :D they so fucking cute cans (L) ! :D yayay , i love sec1s ! :D Im really lazyyy to get my hands working recently ! Hence , my blog is so dead T____T . Camwhore aft guides training . awesome shitzxc ! :D

I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy would throw stuffed animals at me when i'm acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the playstation games and then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He'd play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who i could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count stars. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly; someone who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile.

RETARDED PIC OF THE DAY ! :D

YAYAY ! IM GNA HID THE WHOLE CONTAINER OF PINEAPPLE TARTS UNDER MY BLANKET ): . NO MORE FOR YOU PEOPLE !!!! <:

2011-01-28T22:08:00.004+08:00

FILIAN ! HAPPYBIRTHDAY ! :D

I know im awesome ! I even dedicate this post to you lehh (: . Stay happy , strong no matter what happen ! SMILE ! Like the smiley faces above ^^^^^^^^ . Cutee right , you smile more thn can be as cute as them liao . LMAO :D

2011-01-23T21:15:00.002+08:00

OLA (: . School tml , sian max (N) . Tests coming up alr , ohmygod ah . I spent my weekends on lappy ): . Totally wasted my precious timetimetime . Doing my science revision now , nth really goes into my head . So i ended up blogging -___- . how wonderful . I really hate sundays manzxc . AH . HOPE I'LL SURVIVE THIS WEEK ! :D

Byebye (: .

You've gotta learn to laugh at life's little difficulties. –Robby Ray

2011-01-22T18:17:00.002+08:00

I never wanna leave this awesome patrol (L) . -Hazel not included in pic- (:

OLA(: . Life aint awesome at all , i swear . THINGS ARE LIKE HAPPENING EVERYNOW AND THN . i have to live in fear everyday . Sigh . Had another round of selection for thinking day color party . Torturing , tiring , bullshitzxc , scoldings , shoutings . But at the end of the day , i still managed to scrap through this tough selection and get selected (: . Schedule is more packed now , with all the trainings . I have to learn how to cope (: , or else im gonna cry -__- . Heard that the instructor is fucking strict , she expect only PERFECTION . Just experienced it earlier on . No joke -_- . JIAYOUSSS (Y) .

Girlguides was fucking awesome ytd . Everyone just went hyper :P Maybe it was the sec1s that made us like this (: . AAHAH . Sitting in the middle of parade square , with our butts burning , SINGING SONGS ! :D . Cool or what ! :D . (L) . Those were the moments when my life seems alright . (:

I've turned everything to smiles , joy and laughter . Thats why my life always seems fine (:

2011-01-17T21:16:00.003+08:00

I din know getting an assessment book can be that frustrating(:

~~I want to love you , but my brain told me i cant (: .~~

i really want to , but ... there are too much things disrupting my feelings .
i dun have a choice , boy . i dont have .

~~It is fucking disappointing , do you know that ?~~

2011-01-16T14:40:00.003+08:00

OLA (: . AWESOME PPL GIMME THIS AWESOME KITKAT ! -happyhappy- AHAHAH (: . Whats more its GREEENNN . Fucking nice green \m/ Damn nice cans , dun jealous (: ! :D EATING THE LAST ONE NOW ): . Shall manman enjoy it (: .

BYE (:

2011-01-15T21:47:00.005+08:00

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OLAAAA ! (: . No photos today (: . Photo quality kind of sucks ): Sorreh (: . AHAHA , council duty was ...... THE BEST EVER ! ;D AAHAH . My day started off in a fucking epic way (: . My sis and I was running late . LOLS . met Wejie and jodi at northpoint (Y) ! :D Blazer rocks , but it traps heat ): Eeyer ! :D "This way pls , " "Pls walk here , " " No , here , " -____- . LMAO LAH . Just keep on repeating these few sentences during duty xD . BUT AWESOME TIME AT NEESOONEAST CC (: ! Dinner was OMFG (: . Had a fucking great shock at escalator and screamed . LOL . AHAAHA . i ran ard KFC and calmed myself down for i was on the verge of vomiting out my food . OHMYFUCKGOD LAH . LOLS . What happened there is seriously damn kp for _____ (: . YAY ! IVAN , CAIWEI , JIKANG - WE ROCKS THE SHIT OFF \m/ . loveyouall .

OHYEAH (: . MY DEAR LCCCC , Caiwei and I sucks at stalking . or maybe its me only . We needa improve on our stalkings ! :D shall plan a perfect route next time . Life is fucking awesome coz of today (: . ILOVEYOU PPL (:

BYEE (: .

2011-01-14T22:10:00.003+08:00

OLA PPL . Im getting seriously damn lazy recently ! :) . Life has been revolving ard ... GUIDES ! :D ahahaha , Awesome or what ! <3>IXORA FTW ! we spent our time smacking ppl legs -_- and my thighs has two small bruises thanks to JASMINE -.- . LMAO . Colours today (: . Fucking pathetic , lazy elaborate ! :D Gonna have council duty tml . YEAHHH (: (Y) .

Ahahaha , everyday has been tiring , i can just drop onto my bed aft sch <: . But yeah . Hmwk is always waiting for me ): HOOHOO ! Life can be awesome , think positive yeah ! THOUGH EVERYONE IS LIKE SAYING MY LIFE IS DARN COMPLICATED ! :D My life is in a mess right now . keke , but ahhh . still as awesome at times ! (: Lessons can be quite interesting at times w ppl to talk to (Y) ! :D

Yay , Enjoy life (: !

BYE PPL .

And i just realized epic things always happen w JODIWONG ard (:

2011-01-08T21:50:00.004+08:00

OLA (: .

Today marks the end of the sec1 orientation (: , have to start to attend lessons next week , have to start on my hmwk , have to get use to sitting on the asshole chair and listening to monotone voices -__- No photos recently . CaiLing is too lazy to upload :( . Just received another sweet msg , fuck . make me feel so sad .

I din really take any photos , din bring my camera (SAD) . Sec1orientation = Joy , fun , laughter , dsiaoing , gastric , hyper , dsiao , encouragements , sweeeeettts , embarrassment , yishun trail walk , chewing gum , heritage trail , foooddd , cai man ___ pai , stupid tests by ivan to see how slow i am , games . (:

Liferocks w sec1s (: . They are really nice and friendly :D . Though they can get really too 'over' at times , but they still ROCKS MY LIFE \m/ ! i feel like listing out the whole class out -_- shld i ? :>

First wk of sch just ended like this . Fast yeah? (: HOPE I WILL SURVIVE THE LESSOOONNNSSS AND MY LIFE W/O 1e6'11 ! :DD

BYE .

2011-01-06T21:00:00.003+08:00

OLA (: .

Im so sorry i let my personal things affect my whole performance today . Sorry . Im gonna give my best shot tml , i promise (: . 1E6'11 ! :D ILY ALL SO MUCH (L) . rock on , juniors :D !

~~My heart aches everytime i think of you , it is getting a little too torturing , my dear . Hope to see you tml .~~

2011-01-05T19:55:00.003+08:00

The worst thing that can ever happens to you is that people comes and irritates you when you are dying from gastric pain .

i almost died today . =='

Sec1 orientation has been really awesome so far , w awesome jnrs and facilitators (: .

Life is awesome . EVERYTHING IS A W E S O M E . lol . i really have to enjoy this one week -__- . i think i will just die from all the lessons .

2011-01-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

OLA (: . School is starting like tml . OMG LAH >: . im not prepared at all . 10plus now , hmwk thrown all over my room , bag not packed yet . im in a mess right now , so luan -'- . I just chiong-ed finish my hmwk (: like finally . This holiday just passed too fast , sigh . School sucks tothecore yeah ? I wonder how imma going to face the teachers and so on . Im so glad that i dun have to attend the 1week of lessons . thankgod :D . But i still have to go back to the bloody boring lessons one fine day . Sigh , life sucks in school ): . I want holiday back so much . i swear i will enjoy every moment of it , rather than just slacking for the two whole months . kind of wasted yeah ? Fml lah . i think i can only slp at 2am tonight , im used to slping this late already . Have to report 640am tml (: COUNCIL (Y) . Hope everything goes well for 2011 ! :D

I feel like dying aft seeing my study table and my room . it so messy -,- .

BYE (: . Hope i will survive !

~~i hate school , i hate school so much . i think im gonna screw my sec 2 year .~~

2011-01-02T13:03:00.001+08:00

SCROLL DOWN FOR DEDICATIONS :)

2011-01-01T19:04:00.002+08:00

OLA (:

Yknw , time really flies this year . I did not even get to enjoy my sec 1 life and .. KABOOMMZXC ! Im alr going to be sec2 in a few days time . I hate secondary school ttm (: , really . I have to learn how to adapt to the changes , how to cope w my studies , how to interact w your new friends . When you reaches secsch , people aint that easy to get along . People hate you w/o any reason , hypocrites are everywhere ... It was tough at the beginning , it is still tough now . However , if i were to look at a brighter side , secsch is a new experience . I met alot of true friends , yes , they rocks my life (Y) . When you are down , they are willing to write you a card just to cheer you up . Sweet isnt it ? They are there for you when you broke down , they will give you a big hug and at that moment , everything seems alright . You can always count on them for advices , EVERYTHING . I still remember , i was down w intestine infection ): Jingyee gave me a call and they told me they are gonna visit me (: . aww , i was damn touched yeah . Though they kind of like disrupt my peace -,- . ahaha (: . Secsch is also a place where you can find true friends (: . Alot of things have been going on in this year , alot . Stimes , so much that i couldnt cope w the flow and i just feel like collapsing . I've grown alot in secsch , grown alot , changed alot . People do change yeah ? :) i hope mine is a good one and will always be . I know sec2 is gonna be tougher , but im gonna survive this journey . Jiayous ! :D

i have to learn how to love secsch .

2011-01-01T15:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! 2011 is here (:

a brand new start !

OLA PPL ! :)

okay , i sounded so freaking excited bout 2011 -,- . But actually i hate it alot . HOHOO (: .

i dread 2011 ! :D YAY ! (Y) . Pray that everything will be muchmore btr ! :D keke (: . imma just starting on my dedications . Shitmylife . ): NO TIME BLOG LAH . i want do hmwk leh , but no mood do . fuck . school is starting in 3days time . hmwk not done . shitshitshit . Wish my good luck yeah .

BYE PEOPLE .

i want to learn how to love 2011 .

2010-12-29T13:59:00.006+08:00

CHANFANGLING♥

i love you alot ! :D ♥♥♥ You are always there for me , willing to listen my pathetic life stories and my endless complaints . I dunno when it started , but we get closer and we became bestfs :) . i know you have alot of things going on in your life too , but you never fails to remain cheerful . :D keke . Every trip with you ard was great , you crap like hell , talk like shit , bhb ttm ! but you still rocks so much \m/ . thankyous for everything and tolerating my shits everytime . iloveyoualotgirlf ♥

LIMQIANYU♥

OLAAAAAAAAA sweeettyyyy :) . I shared alot of wonderful memories in guides w you . alotalot :) we were in the same patrol for the two camps and having you ard was AWESOME :D The fishmonger , the potato , the smiles and laughters , your dimples :D . You are really easygoing and niceeee (Y) . Its so fucking easy to talk to you yeah . THANKYOUS for adding colours to my life . loveyouhelllots . ♥♥♥ JJLIN FTW !

VETINALIN♥

keke , i only get to know you recently yeah ! :D LOL , i swear you can be dramatic at times lehh ! Shouting my name when you are stuck in the middle of the net --' ! ahahaahhahaah ! YOU HAVE A GREAT VOICE . shld have join choir instead of GG :P . ahaahaha ! i hope to know you even btr ! LOVEYOU ! ♥♥♥ yeah , dun be so siao over hellokittyyyy !

TANHUIXIAN♥

AUNTIE ! :D The company outing really let me know more about you yeah . The long talk at the beach , the advices you gave me . The bicycle ride . i havent return you money yet :P . The bbq pit . The gossips . The lunch at northpoint . EVERYTHING . You bake good cookies (Y) . its nice alright ! :D thankyou for being such a great friend / senior . LOVEYOUUUU ! :D ♥♥♥♥

JASMINETAN♥

OLA ! being w you in the same patrol during june camps ROCKS TTM ! :D The choco fondue , the letter you gave me , the laughter , the siaoness . You are reallyy hyper , siao , friendly , dramatic . ZOMG . being w you really rocks. you never fails to hype up the atmosphere . My first impression of you was ahlian , RMBBBB ? KEKE :D YEAH . loveyoutons ♥♥♥ .

LEONGJIAQI , ♥

HEY ! :D the bus ride w you was awesome , all your jokes (: . loveyousomuch ♥♥♥

MURNI, ♥

OLA (: . i will rmb the long walk and the stupid bus ride <: . The complaints , the 'sufferings' . heheh . ahaha , i will miss you once you step down ! ): no more councilors in guides ~ loveyou ! ♥♥♥

IXORA-Jasmine Tan , Hazel Lim , Darla , Stephanie ,Czarina , ♥

IXORA! :D awesome patrol , we do awesome stuffs too ! YAY ! how we chitchat when we are supposed to do other things , how we ended up poking bluetacks :P . all those fun and laughter . jasmine tan ! Best PL Ever (: . we maybe the worst patrol for we din really do much serious stuffs , but being in ixora rocks ttm . loveyouallllllllllll , my dear patrooolllll ! :DD

hoohoo , actually , there are more guides i wanna do for dedications , but it getting tiring to type so much . lol . yeah :) ytgg :D !

2010-12-29T13:08:00.006+08:00

OLAAA ! Photos today , imma to lazy to type :D

THANKS HUIXIAN FOR THE PRESENT ! Yeap , i did know you much more btr . Loveyou :)

Had a long talk w huixian by the beach , she gives good advices . thankyous <3>

BYEBYE .

i nvr knew passing someone a gift can be tt difficult until ytd . i almost had an heartattack . fml .

2010-12-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

WILL UPDATE SOON . im too lazy uhh .

Saw Jovan at interchange . Happy to see them once in a while . keke :) miss them alottt lehh !

2010-12-26T13:16:00.004+08:00

OLAAAA ! :D meerrryy xmass ! :D Keke , went partyworld w Qianyu , FangLing , Vetina ytd !

20dollllaarrss -,- but we had tons of fun , like duh ! :D

WL ! i love this chewing gummm :D bought from hongkong lehs ! Thankyou girlf for the tortoise ! :D loveyou <3
OKAY . this is what happen when 3jjlin fans are in ktvvv ! :D JJLIN songsssss :D !

foot massager thr . quite shiok leh ! LMAO :D

cute max (Y) .

EHH ! i like this drink . blueeee lagggooonnn . (L) .

Vetina went off damn early lah ! if she was here , would be more fun :D ! Vetina started singing national day songs. LMAO --' . SCREAMMM . LAUGHHHH . SINGGGGG . tons of unglam-ness thr :D

ILOVEVETINAFANGLINGQIANYU !

no malaysia post today ! next timeee :D BYE :D

2010-12-22T21:27:00.001+08:00

OLA ! I UNLOCKED MY FRKING BLOG FOR SOME REASONS . PARTLY COZ I COULDNT INVITE GIRLF IN D; YEAH . WHATEVER . ANYTHING . BYE .

2010-12-22T14:58:00.003+08:00

DALANGG ! :D POKER . Playing pokers is a must when we get back to Malaysia . We will keep on playing till its like ... 3am ? -.- it is very addictive yknw ! :D But its once in a year chance lurh , so no worries ! I WONT GET ADDICTED --' , like seriously . We can play them like almost EVERYWHERE , EVERYTIME . including in the car -,- . 7.12.10 . keke , we have a crazzehh time . LOL . we brought prawn crackers and whole bunch of bananas and started eating while playing pokers . i think i ate 4bananas -,- ZOMG . but the bananas taste niceee (Y) . and we started our photo booth craze --' . ZZ . took tons of pics w macbook manzxc . ALOTALOT . KEKE !! awesome much . (Y) . pokers ftw ! :D

OLAA ! WENT MARINA BAY SANDS . awesome much . Ate maggie meee thr -,- i think i ate maggie for like 2consecutive days . feel like puking now . im gonna be bald soon -,- the swimming pool was omfg . not bad not bad , but i expected it to be much more high-class . keke :D i spotted many shuaiigerhs there sia , WLLLLL . shuaii ttm (Y) . keke [: . good experience though . OHYEAH . the toilet is like ZOMG . nice ttm . BUT NO LOCK AT ALL . damn insecure when bathing lahh ! they even have body lotion for you . LOL . i have a fucking bad night thr lahh . my brother keep on kicking me and the adults were snoring ?! ohmygod . i couldnt sleep at all . fml . NEHMINDS . keke , marina bay sands ! (Y) .

BYEE :D

If you let yourself be stressed, you get pimples. if you frown, you get wrinkles. so, smile and get dimples! :D

2010-12-21T13:05:00.002+08:00

OLA ! :D

going 新加坡滨海湾金沙酒店 sooonnnn :D KEKE :D ! dalangg .

Why must people ends a friendship by steading , afterall . Knowing that he likes you is just enough [: . Being in a relationship is a complicated shitzxc . I choose friendship over steading :D

2010-12-20T21:44:00.005+08:00

OLA ! when we get too hungry at 3am ... THIS IS WHAT WE DO ! :D MAGGIE MEE FTW ! :D

Play poker and our stomach will starts to growl D: keke , IMMA THE CHEF CANS :D . lmao , my cooking not bad okayy -,- . jkjk :P The very first time we had maggie during the weeeee hours is 9/12/10 . heheh , we waited for 2hrs for our food to digest cans . and in the end ? we slept at 4plus . ZOMG T-T bloody tired . i still rmb i was effing dead tired lurhs . and i fell flat on the bed at 330am -,- i din even have a peaceful sleeeepp . Weiti and Caiwei was like .. ZOMG . tickling my legs , poking me . DISTURBING ME . like fuck . zomg , i almost went berserk . but it is fun [: . i miss the times alright . maggiemeeforsupper . Ilove......Siokwei , Weiti , chesheng , zhiqing , zhihao , weilun , weiting , han xin , hanxi , yuanfei ... (L)

Hangout w jingyee and aurora . Epic fail study marathon , we ended up facebking and gossiping . fml , i wanted to run . but imma too lazyy . fml AGAIN . i love them , i love fsquare :)

i love everyone who makes my life awesome [:

yeah , i love green too [:

bye [: . love exists bcoz it completes who we are .

2010-12-20T13:05:00.003+08:00

OLAAA !!

MEETING JINGYEE AND AURORA LTR ! :D ZOMG , MY BLOG IS SO FRKING DEAD AFTER I LOCKED IT D; TAGG MORE LEHH ! KEKE [:

BUHBYEEEEEEEEE .

BOY , IT IS AMAZING HOW I STILL DUN UNDERSTAND YOU EVEN AFT OUR TEXTS FROM DAY TO NIGHT .

2010-12-18T22:07:00.003+08:00

OLA ! I JUST FEEL LIKE LOCKING MY BLOG CANS ! :D So yeah -,-

yknw what one of the best part of malaysia ? :) There is always a mama shop opening even during wee hours . Just a short ride and you will reach the place nearby . Hanging out there w my aunt and my other cousins is one of our must-do thing in malaysia :) All of us will crowd ard the table and order teh tarlik ( sth like milk tea ) . It tastes heavenly , i swear ! :) If we are hungry , we will order a plate of noodles or roti pratas :) . Maybe it aint the food thats nice . It is the kinship and cordial feeling that make the food taste awesome ! :D My aunt who usually pays everything will joke w us and ask for sth in exchange -.- and obviously , we have to clean up her house . keke ! One of the best memory :)

ilovemyrelatives , and im missing them hell lot right now :'(

zomg , interug games was wonderful ! :D KEKE :D i had fun hitting qianyu (Y) ! So nice to hit sia :P dun kill mee ahhh ! :) ily :) tio drag to play captain ball for council . woohoooo ! awesome :) ZOMG , the ncc seniors go and pour oil on the volleyball , disgusted ttm . And it easily slips off your hand -,- damn pekchek while playing larh . But it is stillll funnnnnn (L) ! :DDDD keke , council won for tt last match ! :)

Tug of war was T-T , no matter how hard we pull the rope , it still wont move . whatthefuck . -'- Lose badly for tug of war , like seriously . BUT NEHMINDSS :DD OMFG , one more year and gg will get the trophy . waittt . ncc too ;D KEKE .

NCC AND GGGGG ! (Y) . overall champion . zomg . Happydieme [:

ZZZ . wanted to have hmwk marathon after the inter ug games . but failed . AGAIN . went to playground w council mates instead . fml . i dunwan to touch my freaking chi hmwk , sucks ttm ! :D

OHMYFUCKGOD , i din take any pictures . WL . SADDIEME LAH . damn it . damn it . damn ittt !

shitmylife , BYEEEEE :DDD !

2010-12-17T19:58:00.003+08:00

OLA ! :D imma back from Malaysia -,- . Zzz .. Spore is as suckish as usual . FML ! D:

Went out w jingyee and aurora today ! KeKe :D i miss laughing w the girls ! :DD AHAHA . Had a great laugh as usual , study plan failed again -.- . Sigh :) Gossip , talk bout stupid stuffs ! :D Ilovethem (L) !

Tml is inter ug games . omg . fucking excited ! :D Next few posts are gonna be all on malaysia . AHAHAHA . BYEE :D

2010-12-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

Gonna be back on 16dec .

2010-12-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

OLAAA :DD
Just had supper with my relatives -,- i really hope i wont get too fat .
Will update soon ;D

2010-12-08T22:25:00.002+08:00

JODI ! This post is for you alright ;D YEAH . naggings uh :) btr read on !

Heheh . It was really shocking to hear all these things . Unexpected ! I wouldnt even dream bout these kind of things happening , but well . Lets face the reality :) . Though i dun really support you bfore , but well , it is YOUR choice afterall . I hope that you made the right choice this time , and it must be the right one . And if you din , i hope you will wake up from everything and open your eyes wide next time . Dun cry over it , be strong ! :D You both may have to face alot of things in the future , so be brave , face it ! Dun let any single shitzxc affect both of you . Hoohoo [: I noe it may be kind of pekchek at times , be patient , dun get so piss off by anything . If you need any advices or anything , fsquare will always be here for you . I promise :)
Love you tons ! (L) I want to treat you berrylite , for the first time :) ahahah . Gettit ?

2010-12-07T23:50:00.004+08:00

This is what you have to do with your macbook :)

2010-12-04T21:58:00.002+08:00

OLA ! The two camps was really awesome (Y) , with my council camp groupmates , ANGELA , RIZEL , MARCUS , JOSHUA , AMIRA . They are great ppl ! life is never boring with them :) Councilcamp is really interesting !! Everyone was at hyper mode at all times , packed w games and night trail ! im really lazy to elaborate . too much to ! :) PT was =.='' . but im starting to love buddha claps . lol . I LOVE COUNCIL ! (L)

guides was equally awesome , but i was damn tired by the time i attend guides camp D: . not much mood to hyper lerr ~ heheh , but everything was alright aft a slp ! :DD ant bites all over my legs now . itchy max . worked alot ! Tiredtired . but my patrol members , JOLENE , VETINA , QIANYU , CLARE , WENQI , made my life btr thr ! so fun to talk to ! love them max alright !

I LOVE GUDIES ! (Y)

But through these camps , i have learnt alot and i finally sorted out my thinking bout my preferences between these two commitments :) . i also found out that this world is really unfair . 2sided ppl ? they always stand first , not much ppl really notice another side of them . i've noticed 2 of them , and it is ... =.=' . What can we do ? nth at all :) live with it , life still continues . Sigh , i hope people will open their eyes wider . :)